To The Old Me And The New Me

An Open Letter To The Woman I Used To Be, Because I'm Coming Back For You

But, I'm also leaving part of you behind, too.


To the woman I once was:

Hey you. It's been a minute. We haven't connected in a while, especially since my goal was to annex you away from my current attitude and lifestyle. I guess we can say I did a damn good job at that, right?

I used to be so passionate about everything in my life. Passionate about my career. Passionate about my friendships and relationships. Passionate about love. Passionate about being in love with reaching a goal. I was so self-driven.

But, as everyone knows, sometimes negativity takes over the good. I was so down on myself at all hours in the day. I would lay in bed at night, staring at the ceiling, picking at all of the things I needed to work on.

"Be better." "Do more." "You're not trying hard enough." I would focus so much on who I wasn't or what I didn't have that I began to lose those passionate lights in my eyes. It went from being passionate to absolutely obsessive.

I pushed you away because I felt like I was drowning and I was too deep in my thoughts (which I was). I was lost and worried I was falling too deep into the negativity. "I need a new fresh start," I kept telling myself, over and over again.

A fresh start is exactly what I gave myself.

I started to focus less on the details and more on how I feel as an individual in my own skin. My only goal in this new mentality was to be happy. That's it. And each day I defined "happy" as something different. Happy with how my body looks. Happy with the weather and the coffee I had in hand. Happy with life in general. Happy was something different every day, and I truly began to look forward to what each day would bring to allow me to reach my happiness goal.

Although this new me is very happy, positive, and big-picture focussed, I am starting to miss the old you. I miss having goals for myself and striving to surpass them. I miss having the drive to burst out of bed every day because I was excited to get after those goals. I miss the passion that burned in my heart. I miss that part of the old me.

So, here I am, meeting with you again, ready to bring the old me back. Ready to find my passions again, and ready to work towards my goals. I'm excited to combine my new idea of happiness by rediscovering my passions and goals. I'm ready for the challenge, and I'm ready to work on myself more with this process.

But to the negative side of the old me, hear this loud and clear: you can stay as far away as possible. No negativity wanted here.


The Woman Owning It All And Ready To Be Herself Again

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If You've Ever Been Called Overly-Emotional Or Too Sensitive, This Is For You

Despite what they have told you, it's a gift.

Emotional: a word used often nowadays to insult someone for their sensitivity towards a multitude of things.

If you cry happy tears, you're emotional. If you express (even if it's in a healthy way) that something is bothering you, you're sensitive. If your hormones are in a funk and you just happen to be sad one day, you're emotional AND sensitive.

Let me tell you something that goes against everything people have probably ever told you. Being emotional and being sensitive are very, very good things. It's a gift. Your ability to empathize, sympathize, and sensitize yourself to your own situation and to others' situations is a true gift that many people don't possess, therefore many people do not understand.

Never let someone's negativity toward this gift of yours get you down. We are all guilty of bashing something that is unfamiliar to us: something that is different. But take pride in knowing God granted this special gift to you because He believes you will use it to make a difference someday, somehow.

This gift of yours was meant to be utilized. It would not be a part of you if you were not meant to use it. Because of this gift, you will change someone's life someday. You might be the only person that takes a little extra time to listen to someone's struggle when the rest of the world turns their backs.

In a world where a six-figure income is a significant determinant in the career someone pursues, you might be one of the few who decides to donate your time for no income at all. You might be the first friend someone thinks to call when they get good news, simply because they know you will be happy for them. You might be an incredible mother who takes too much time to nurture and raise beautiful children who will one day change the world.

To feel everything with every single part of your being is a truly wonderful thing. You love harder. You smile bigger. You feel more. What a beautiful thing! Could you imagine being the opposite of these things? Insensitive and emotionless?? Both are unhealthy, both aren't nearly as satisfying, and neither will get you anywhere worth going in life.

Imagine how much richer your life is because you love other's so hard. It might mean more heartache, but the reward is always worth the risk. Imagine how much richer your life is because you are overly appreciative of the beauty a simple sunset brings. Imagine how much richer your life is because you can be moved to tears by the lessons of someone else's story.

Embrace every part of who you are and be just that 100%. There will be people who criticize you for the size of your heart. Feel sorry for them. There are people who are dishonest. There are people who are manipulative. There are people who are downright malicious. And the one thing people say to put you down is "you feel too much." Hmm...

Sounds like more of a compliment to me. Just sayin'.

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Life Is So Much More Than Ourselves

The lives we live are really so much bigger than just ourselves.


I hope people hear this loud and clear when I say that this generation of people and quite frankly our society as a whole has become one of the most selfish to date. I really hope people reading this don't take it as me calling people out, "throwing shade" or bashing humanity, I'm just trying to put out a call to action but in a more blunt way.

This generation subconsciously lives by the "me, my, mine" lifestyle. Everything is all about us, and what we want and immediate satisfaction or gratification from the things that we do in life. We always want someone to notice what we are doing, that we did it and we want to be acknowledged for it. Our wants and desires power so much of what we do and how we react to what others do and so on and so forth. Also, kind of piggybacking on that, we tend to believe or live by the idea that, "yeah it happens, but it's never gonna happen to me" which can be a major issue when it comes to decision making. This is because we don't think about how it affects anyone but ourselves, usually in the immediate sense rather than the long term.

With that being said it can become an issue when we choose to ignore the other things going on around us like, "oh, someone else will get it." and then things like the trash epidemic and the state at which our planet and country is in now. We have become so self-absorbed that it's to hell with everything else. The places that we call home and the world that we know is falling apart and we are all just gonna sit by and watch like nothing is happening.

I am tired of the mentality that we as a society live in, and how we try to desperately to look great on social media but do nothing about it in real life. It is time that things change and we are the ones changing it.

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