I remember the first time I met you, I had just moved to a new place. I was scared and worried, just as anyone would be when starting a new chapter in their life. All of my worst fears came true, as everything seemed to take a turn for the worst. I hated my decision to leave home and wanted to go back. I was lonely and afraid, surrounded by darkness, then you came along. During this vulnerable place in my life, you were the one to save me. You brought light into my darkness, and I fell for it, all of it. I got to know each and every part of you, even your worst parts. I accepted you in your entirety, and fell head over heals. Falling for you was everything I imagined my first love to be: scary as all hell, but exciting and spontaneous.

You opened me up to a different world, all by showing me things about myself that I didn't even know. Then, I got what is extremely dangerous in any serious relationship, comfortable. I got comfortable, and I shouldn't have. I should have seen through all of the "I love you's" and especially the "I'm in love with you's". When the relationship got tough and it was hurting me more than helping me, I still stuck around. I looked past all of the bad and tried to see all of the good, I guess that's the kind of person I've always been. The day you broke my heart was by far the worst day of my life. The feeling of a broken heart is indescribable. No matter what words I try to put together in a sentence to try to make sense of it all, none of them even begin to describe the aching pain I felt inside when my heart was stomped on by the one person I trusted the most in life.

All of the commitment and love I was willing to give you, you didn't want any of it. You tossed it to the side as if it was garbage. What hurt even more, is that you didn't want it because someone else gave it to you. Then, you said the one thing that I thought I would never hear you say, that you never loved me. Throughout all of the long night cuddles, errands ran, movie dates, and all the other times we have spent together, you never loved me. Is this really what the world is full of? People who will deceive you and hurt you. People who will make you think you have a long future together, but then disappears, as if you never knew each other. Instead of ending our relationship with grace and respect, you ended it with cruelty. That was probably the worst part of it all, thinking you know a person like the back of your own hand and finding out that they're a stranger to you.

But I'm not here to criticize you for leaving me with trust issues and shattering my heart into a million pieces, I'm actually here to thank you. Before you, I didn't realize how much evil is actually out there in the world, how much evilness just one person can have inside of them. I want to thank you for showing me that not all people are going to be kind and caring, but it's those exact people that will make you cherish the ones that are in fact kind and caring.

We may encounter mean, rude people in our life. They will try to tear us down, walk out of our lives, and shatter our hearts. But because of all of this, we will be ready to open our hearts to something bigger and better than what we once thought we had. Something great and out of this world. Although I am still struggling with the broken pieces of myself you left me with, I'm slowly learning how to put them back together. Eventually, I will fully be able to give myself to someone again. I will care and love and trust, and I will do this with the upmost respect and decency, because I know how it feels to be let down. I am a better, stronger version of myself, all thanks to you. So thank you for showing me the obstacles that will be thrown at me in life, and how I am strong enough to overcome them all.