Hi,

Even though I don't remember, everyone tells me that I was excited to be a big sister. I’m sure that when you finally opened your mouth and wailed for the first time, I may have rethought my excitement. To start off, I know you miss me. It's Kind of hard not to... and I know I said I probably wouldn't miss you but I do. I miss just being able to hangout whenever, even if we just say around in one of our rooms and watched Netflix. It was so comforting knowing that you guys were always around. From walking around endlessly at Target or just driving around at night, I will truly miss your company. I hope you know that I'm just a call away. I guess I should my apologies. I apologize for some stuff. I'm sorry that I can get bossy, I know I'm not your parent, I just don't want to see you mess up. I've seen the way people can mess up their lives, and I wonder if they needed anyone to talk to and help them. I know how great you are, so please know that as a bug sister, I just want to protect you.

I'm sorry that sometimes I'm not always warm & cuddly and that I need time alone; it's not you, it's me. 10% of the time, it's probably you, but for the most part, it's me. I know you may not agree, but I feel like I just need some time alone. I'm sorry that I had to leave. I know how much we have been through together, always staying whenever something happens. I wish I could be there, 30 feet away instead of a hundred miles. I know you’ll thrive. I know that your friends love you, and mom and dad love you, and the cousins and family we have so close makes knowing I cannot be there in person a little better. I know they will protect you like I hope I have done. Be kind to people, treat them like you would want to be treated. Pour your heart into the things you love, and respect all people, no matter what.

If I can give you one piece of advice, please focus on school as much as possible, I know that the parties are fun and spending your days in bed watching Netflix sounds better than your Precalc, trust me, I have had the same thoughts, but try to keep your focus on school (weekends are good for Netflix.) Open up, find some close friends that really know you are relate to you, and hold onto them. Stay close to mom and dad; now that their favorite child is away, they are going to need you to be strong, The last and most important piece of advice I can give is to pick up the phone and call me if you need.

You guys mean the world to me, and I love you to the moon and back. I am still excited and very proud to be your big sister. I cannot wait to see you soon, enjoy everything!