We may not always see eye to eye, but I want you to know that I love you. I will always be here for you because I am your big sister. I will protect you from the terrors around you. I will be there when you are sick. Just call me and I’ll be there.
You are my best friend and nothing will change that. You have been there through so much. You have been there through every hair color. You have seen every laugh and every tear. You know when I need a hug and movie night. I know when you want to just cuddle on the couch and watch animal movies.
I know when you are sick and need some soup -- and although I hate being sick, I will get sick if it means you will get better.
We have so many memories, just the two of us, and I will hold on and cherish these memories forever. I apologize for taking so many pictures of you. I just want to take them with me where ever my path takes me. I want to cherish the memories.
I know it's been hard for you, we have been through so much in the past five and a half years. You have grown up so well and I am proud of you. I have watched you grow from birth to now. You are almost 11 and I am so proud to call you my little brother. For the past five-and-a-half years, we have been there for each other. I have been there for you when mom or dad couldn't be and I want you to know that it will always be like that.
You have taught me so much in just the 11 years that you have been on this earth with me. I learned how to change diapers, babysit, be a sister, and within the past five years, be a parent. You taught me how to get through my mental illness-- whether you are aware of this or not. I had you as motivation to get better. I didn't want you to think that what I was doing was OK--because it wasn't. It hurt you, it hurt mom and dad, and it hurt my friends. I don't want you to think hurting people is OK--because it isn't.
I promise to be at all the baseball games and practices that I can be at. I promise to be in the front row cheering you on as much as I can. I won't leave you cheerleader-less. Everyone needs a cheerleader and I swear to you that I will be yours like you are mine. I went to many performances without anyone there to watch me specifically--it felt horrible and I will never let you feel as though no one supports or loves you.
Down the road, when life has lead us both in different paths, I hope you find this and realize that I will always be there for you. I will always be just a phone call away when I am no longer just a room away. Just because we don't live under the same roof doesn't mean I love you any less. You are my little brother. I am the only girl that can make fun of you. I was there for your first breath, I was there for your first step, your first word, your first broken bone, I will be there when you have your first heartbreak, I will be here no matter what. I love you too much to let you suffer alone.
Always remember, I am older, and I probably went through a similar situation to you. I am full of advice and I will be here no matter what, no matter how old we are. I will be here until I die. Whether we are next door neighbors or we are living in different countries -- if you call me -- I will be there.
Always remember that I love you. You are my little brother and I am your big sister.
