"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Dear my beloved,
I am not ready for you yet. God is still working on me. I am still trying to figure myself out and get to where God has me going. I am excited to meet you one day though. I know that with God's perfect timing, we will meet exactly when we are supposed to, when we are both ready.
To be honest, we probably will be so caught up in life and in the moment that out of no where, we will appear to one another. I know it won't be like a Lifetime movie, but it will be perfect in our own messed up, sinful life kind of way. Our life where God's grace is new every single day.
We will get to explore together, create new memories together and adventures. We will be able to make each other laugh and we will take the good in with the bad. We will be happy just in each other's presence. We will have experiences with one another that we have yet to experience with anyone else. But we have to remember to keep God the center. In our relationship together, in our families, in our work lives, He must be first above all else. God is the fountain of life and without Him we will never have grace or be renewed.
What I pray for above anything else though is that my heart is ready for you when that day comes. I pray that right now and each day until I meet you, that God is continually working on my heart. Not for you, but for me. I need to be ready before I will ever be ready for someone else. Before I could ever take care of someone else, before I could ever pour out my entire being to someone else. Before I could ever share my deepest secrets with someone else. Before I could ever love someone else again, yet alone let down my wall and let someone else love me again.
I know that with whomever God brings into my life for me to love, those walls that I have built will slowly, but surely begin to fall. So I pray that you will be patient with me. I can be stubborn and a little bit sassy, but I will love you with all that I have. I have a really big heart. I will make you laugh and I will go on adventures with you. I care about people a lot and animals too. I don't like things to remain the same. So let's go out on a date to the park, watch Netflix, or go for a walk. Let's build a life together, with God in the center and see what happens.
Until then, I can't wait to meet you.
