First and foremost, I want to say thank you for putting up with me. I know I'm hardly a perfect person and there are days when I feel extremely unlovable. The thoughts in my head go everywhere like a damn rollercoaster and there are times when I can't comprehend one from another, therefore when I speak it's very hard to decode what the hell I am saying. You, however, have not only mastered understanding what I am saying, you take it with a grain of sand and help me level myself back to a somewhat sane human being.

Throughout my adventures in life from a teenager to a maybe functioning adult in their twenties, I have come across my fair share of bad dealt hands. Basically before you came along I was treated much less than I deserved, cheated on, dropped with no explanation, etc. You name it I've endured it. After all those bad relationships, if you can every one of them a relationship, it's not an easy task to pick yourself up and act as if none of the previous crap ever happened. It's even harder to give someone as caring and trustworthy as you the benefit of the doubt. After days, even hours, of getting to know you, I was finally dealt that ace of spaces and I knew you were someone I could invest my all into and the risk would be entirely worth it; and it was.

Sometimes after a failed relationship that until that doomed day, I thought was the real deal, I had to reevaluate to myself what it was that I was looking for. Besides the fact that that last person I dated wasn't a very good person by any means, what went wrong? Then I understood that all I wanted was someone to stick with me through everything that didn't consist of romantic wine filled evenings straight after payday. With an empty wallet but a heart filled with promise, all I wanted was someone to stay with me. It was those low key abandonment issues that were beginning to really take over my way of thinking and a tunnel vision that began to form; every person I meet is going to do this to me. It's not entirely that unheard of; once someone becomes to used to the same event happening it isn't entirely crazy for that person to begin to wonder if that's all they'll ever know.

I am glad to say you broke every one of those insecurities. That wall of problems and issues left by the past were not only knocked over, but the debris swept away entirely. Don't get me wrong, there are days when I am not completely myself and I begin to question whether or not this is too good to be true. That is the next step, wondering if this is all a glorious dream and I will wake up in my bed, still single and bitter. The best part is you are now a part of my reality. I go to bed every night because I can't wait to wake up and have another day with you.

I am not a mushy person by any means. Romantic to me can simply be ordering pizza and consuming the entire pie in bed while watching Star Wars. It doesn't necessarily have to include candles and roses. The good thing about finding that person who will finally take care of your soul is that, you start to understand why they would want to light candles and give you a bouquet of roses. It boils down to because they want to. Once I stopped questioning why you would want to go the extra mile for me, I appreciated your efforts to make me happy even more.

So thank you. Thank you for loving me. I love you.