Hey up there,
It's been an awfully long time since I've talked to you. Sometimes I go through my Facebook messages just to look at our most "recent" conversations. I would give anything to hear your voice one more time, but I know that one day I will be with you again, so for now the reminiscing will have to be enough.
Some days are harder than others down here, but not a day goes by that I don't wish you were right here beside me. It's been over five years since you left this earth, and I'm still waiting for the day that it gets easier. I don't know who came up with "time heals all wounds" idea, but they were sadly mistaken.
I never would have thought that on that Saturday morning when mom woke me up, that my life would never be the same again. Sometimes I still hope that I'm living the world's longest nightmare and that one day I will wake up in my bed in Florida and walk downstairs to see your face. Our days in Florida will forever be at the top of my list of favorite memories of you. From playing darts by the pool (I know you always let me win) to our monthly trips to Universal Studios, the memories are stuck with me forever. I guess I have you to thank for guilt-tripping me into riding rollercoasters with you because I can't imagine how boring all my trips to the fair and theme parks would be now.
I went to Universal for the first time without you this year, and let me tell you, it was a bittersweet experience. Remember the day that we spent 15 hours in park non-stop? I'm honestly not sure how we survived that, because I was exhausted after six hours when I went this time. Remember the Rip Ride Rock-It rollercoaster that was brand new the last time we went to Universal? Well it's definitely not brand new anymore, but I still played "Stronger" by Kanye West because it was always your favorite. It's the little things that bring back the strongest memories, but it is also those little things that I am most thankful for.
It's comforting to know that I have an angel in heaven watching over me at all times. The hardest times seem to be made easier when I think of you saying, "Be strong baby girl, you can do this." Thank you for always being my rock, even from heaven, I stay strong because of you. When life gets hard, I think of you and how you wouldn't let me give up. My strength comes from you, and for that I am forever thankful.
I love you daddy,
Your "little" girl
