Hi, "mom, hi, "dad"
As I sit here in my dorm room at the private college I attend, I can't help but think how great I am. I'm only a sophomore in college and I do great things on and off my campus. I am a strong believer in women's rights. So I advocate as much as I can on campus. I work with the LGBT club on campus because I love them all and want to be a better ally for them. I go to all my classes and make straight A's (with the exception of a B here and there). I work hard to get my practicum hours and make sure I complete my work study. I am doing such great things with my life, and I wish you guys could see it.
I hope you guys are doing well. I haven't talked to you because for some reason you guys decided you didn't want to be a part of my life anymore. So without not even a mere goodbye, you guys vanished from my life. By the way mom, thanks for never returning any of my phone calls, but never forgetting to share my articles on Facebook.. Maybe you'll share this one, too. Dad, don't worry about me, I'm getting along just fine. You stopped supporting me, but I'm tutoring in the tutoring center. The pay isn't great, but it's better than taking your money.
Over Christmas break I noticed that everyone was going home to their families. They were going home to mom's and dad's and loving pets. I was going home to my best friend's house. Which became my own. I went home to my best friend and her loving family who do more than take care of me. It's great that they love me and accept me, but it's not the same as coming home to actual blood relatives. Thankfully they love me in the ways you guys never did. When it was time for my family to meet my boyfriend, I took him home to meet them. Because they are my real family. "Mom" "Dad", you all will never meet him.. you don't deserve to. Of course he met my sister though. She is still a very important part in my life.
I have come to terms with your all's absent behavior. Being in college without parents is tough, I admit, but I've done good on my own. It's made me more independent, and because of your absence, other family members have stepped up and made me who I am. Thank god for my sister. She saved me so many times when you guys fell through.
I know my words sound bitter, but they aren't. It's all coming from a good place. I need you guys to know that I don't hate you for abandoning me, but I don't forgive you either. I have accepted your absence and learned to just deal with it.
As I lay here in my bed, my sweet boyfriend is rubbing my feet. He loves me, he takes care of me, and never thinks I've had enough to eat. He has became my rock throughout this journey of losing you guys. I wish you could meet him, he's truly a wonderful person. Sadly, that will never happen, but I am okay with that. I thought that this whole situation made me weak... when really, it turns out you guys are the weak ones. One day I'll be 25, successful and I'll wake up next to the love of my life. Babies will be running into my room and life will be bliss. Most importantly, I will have accomplished all of that without any help from you all.
Mom, dad, sometimes water is thicker than blood.
Sincerely,
Your little girl
P.s. you guys may not think I am great, but I think I am fabulous. So ha!
