First off, I want to start by saying thank you.
Thank you for letting me experience complete and utter happiness and sorrow all at the same time. Thank you for making me realize that when someone only calls you when they need something, they are not the type of person you need to be focusing on trying to make and keep happy. I’ve spent the majority of my teenage years trying desperately to keep everyone else happy.
There is a quote I read a few days ago that really spoke to me. It says: “Never trust a person who has let you down more than two times. Once was a warning, twice was a lesson and anything more than that is simply taking an advantage.” I couldn’t even begin to count how many times you have let me down. I think the biggest letdown to date was when I told you that I would be there for you through everything as long as you let me stay there by your side where I was content. And then you left me. You packed up your things and left me alone. My heart was crushed, but every time my phone rang and I saw your name on my caller ID, I rushed to answer the phone before it went to voicemail. Many times I came across sounding quite out of breath because seeing your name always caused my heart to sink and my chest to convulse.
When you finally came back, you acted as though I meant nothing to you at all, but I was still there for you. Actually, I am still here for you. I always will be no matter how many times you let me down. This huge downfall in my personality that some may say constitutes me as a pushover is what I use as an excuse to never give up on a relationship. No matter how many times I get hurt, over and over again by the same person, I will always come running to answer the phone. Those nights you called/texted me while you were upset and drunk? I stayed up all night long and halfway through the next day just to make sure you made it home alive. If that makes me a pushover, so be it.
So to the guys out there who have a girl who you know would do anything for you, wake up and start treating her with the respect she deserves. If you two are not in a relationship, be a gentleman every once in a while and go out to eat with her. You don’t have to pay, just make her feel appreciated. Make her feel like you don’t just want to talk to her when you’ve had a bad breakup or you got a little too drunk one night. Make her feel like a valued friend, which is all she wants to be. Many girls just love to be your Saturday nights, but the ones you really need to appreciate, the ones you never really give the appropriate attention to, are the ones who long to be your Sunday morning. The ones who want to be with you when you aren’t all hyped up and at the club with your boys, but want to see you at your worst after a night of partying, when your “Sunday morning breakfast” is at 2 p.m.? Those girls. Those are the ones who will have your best interest at heart, and will always look out for you.
Don't let her give you her all if you aren't even capable of giving her a little. It is a balance, and it is a a precious one. Treat it as such.
