Dear Santa,

As I have gotten older I have realized that my priorities in life have switched since I last wrote one of these letters. I remember wanting a pink pony, the latest barbie dream house and a puppy every year until I turned 10. And then from there just wanting more and more elaborate and extravagant toys and trinkets.

I decided this year, being almost 20 years old, that I would write a letter to you one last time (maybe) big guy. Except I wanted to ask for things that were more practical for not only an adult but a full-time college student. One of the first things that I would like for Christmas this year Santa would be guidance.

And I know that that may not be something you can give to me but I would still like to ask for it. I think asking for it is helpful, because then I am at least asking for help from someone. No one said that that "someone" had to be my parent or that he couldn't wear a big red suit and slide down people's chimney's.

Another thing I would ask for this year would be financial security or even better yet, I would ask for the ability to handle my financial situations with a smarter mind and with more consideration towards the future that is fast approaching. Santa, I would also love to know that you could give me the ability to express the love and appreciation I have others more readily and openly.

I feel as though I have a lot to offer the world both through experience, knowledge and other things that I don't think that it should be kept at bay or even locked away. I think I can really grow as a person if I work on my communication skills and I think that ability would be a perfect gift not just to myself but others as well.

And for my last two wishes for what I want Christmas would be love for myself, to see myself like others see me: as this confident, independent and sure of herself young women. I would also love the gift to be able to help out my family more than I can right now. I appreciate all of what they do so much so I would love being able to help out with everything that they need as well as make sure they are in more stable positions in life.

I just wanted to say thank you Santa for forcing me to be a good kid so I wouldn't get coal in my stocking; but also for showing me that as I get older, I don't have to shy away from my childhood and what made me so happy as a child just because I am in adult.

Love,

Moné, the adult still looking for a little bit of childhood Christmas joy.