It feels like it's been forever since you’ve been gone. Even though it’s been a while, every day without you still feels like one day too many.

I know you're in a place full of love and joy. A place of peace and wonderful things, but a part of me wishes you were still here, because I can’t help but miss having you by my side.

I never wanted to imagine a world without you in it. And it's hard.

Sometimes I feel angry and cheated. Sometimes I accept that things are different now. Sometimes I’m simply heartbroken.

I wasn't ready. I'm still not ready.

I think of the wonder in your eyes and love that you gave off to the world. I think of the days we spent exploring and the goodness that you expressed toward everyone.

It's hard to forget someone who gave me so much to remember in such a short time. You gave me beautiful memories of summers by the pool and afternoon picnics. You gave me the most wonderful gifts you had to offer — wisdom, love, time and understanding.

It's hard because there’s so much we never got to do. I never got to ask why you loved purple or lilies. I never got to tell you all the stories about my amazing adventures on my last vacation. I never got to know your most treasured memory. We never even got to talk about the relationships that broke my heart.

Most regrettably, I never got one more chance to tell you how much you really mean to me.

You were a remarkable person who made an impact on everyone you knew.

People still talk about you here. I still hear stories I've never heard before. I learned how you used to take your morning coffee. I see pictures of a younger you that I never even knew. Even though I'd rather have you here, I'm overjoyed that your memory is still alive and well.

I am so sorry for the time I said I couldn't visit. I’m sorry for the time I was in such a terrible mood that I sat at the end of your couch pouting all day long. Originally, I only thought of this as time that I wasted. However, I think you would laugh at my stubbornness, so now I will choose do the same.

I hear you're in a beautiful place. A place full of love and compassion and all things incredible. I hear you're happy, living somewhere where everything feels like a dream and all things have meaning. I hear you're watching over me, cheering me on and smiling down proudly.

I want you to know how blessed I feel to have you as a part my life. You have inspired my heart and my mind. Your gentle nature continues to help me become the person I am today. You were one of a kind and your presence has left a special mark on this world and in my heart.

May you continue to rest in peace, happiness, love and fulfillment. I love you now and forever more and I look forward to seeing your beautiful face again one day.