Dear You,
I don't have words to express the sadness I feel knowing that soon enough, I won't be able to call you mine. Knowing that I won't wake up to "Good morning" texts, or get "Goodnight, I love you" texts before I fall asleep. I am heartbroken, but I am okay. I have told you time and time again that I trust you and I trust your judgement. If this is what you need, I am going to support in anyway that I can. After all, I still love you and want life to get better for you.
Thank you for the impact you have made on my life since you entered it in the sixth grade. Thank you for being my friend when no one else was because I was the "weird new girl" at the school. Thanks for being someone in junior high and high school that I could talk to about Batman and whatever other nerdy things I used to be really into. Thank you for making an effort to re-enter my life when I went to college, I still want to apologize for ditching you that one day. I seriously had so much homework to do. Thank you for being patient with me, and hanging out with me once I came home for the summer. Thank you for being the first guy to have me over and not expect sex from me. Thank you for introducing me to Attack on Titan, Dragon Ball Z, and The Office. Thank you for the late nights at Steak N Shake and Pokemon hunting. Thank you for taking care of me when I was sick and rubbing my stomach when my cramps were really bad. Thank you for everything, thank you for raising my dating standards. Thank you for showing me what I am worth and constantly encouraging me to be better. Literally, thank you for being you.
I have told you this before, but I have never connected with someone the way I have connected with you. I think that's why losing you is going to be rough, but in the end I will be okay. We will be okay. Whether that means we get back together, or just become really good friends. I don't want to lose you all together, and that's why I am going to be mature about what's going to happen between us next. I will give you space, I will give you time, I will give you everything you need.
I am choosing to be mature here, rather than causing a problem. I am choosing to understand where you are coming from, and I am proud of myself for that. I am happy that we are able to be adults about this, even if it's rough. At this point, I don't have much else to say. Although I am hurt, I want you to know that I will be okay. I might cry, I might be sad for awhile, but eventually I will be back to my happy optimistic self.
You will always hold a place in my heart, I hope you are aware of that.
Love Always,
Lexxie
