To my family on the other side of the country,

I would tell you that I miss you but you know that, because I say it to at least one of you everyday. Im going to take this letter to thank you, and to tell you all of the things that I have realized since moving away. Thank you mom and dad for letting me make my own choices, even if they meant blindly moving cross country to a city I had never been to. Thank you for giving me every nickel and dime you could so that I could make it here, and thank you for never asking for anything in return. You two are the most selfless people I know and Im so happy that I have the opportunity to make you proud. Thank you to my siblings for being the extra push to get through this time away from you. I miss you guys more than anything, I will never learn to be without you guys. You don't realize how much your phone calls, texts, and FaceTimes help me through the day.

I would also like to apologize for all of things that Im missing while Im gone. I hate that Im missing your birthdays, your crises, your shows, your sports games, trust me it kills me. You still call me for advice and I wish I was there to give you the emotional support that you need. I hate to think that there are huge things happening in your lives that Im missing out on, and I want you to know that If I could be there I would. I feel selfish that Im here and not home with you.

Our family was on the verge of falling apart when I left and now Im afraid that I haven't been home to support you guys in this shitty time. I will be present as much as I can when I come home again. Leaving has made me realized how important you guys are and how much I rely on you for comfort. This summer wont be long enough and this is how its going to be for a while and I hope we figure something out to make this a little easier. I love you all and I am beyond excited to see you next month.