Dear Ex-Best Friend,
Hey. How are you? I can't believe it has been years since we last talked.... All those years ago I would have never thought this would happen to us. So much has happened since we have last spoken, and it hurts knowing we are no longer friends.
What happened between us? It seemed like one day we were texting every second of the day, and the next there was just silence. You were the one I could rely on for anything. You were the one I would call 10 times a day just to say I missed you even though we just saw each other. You were the one I was looking forward to seeing every day. You were the one. You were my person. And then it all just stopped.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry no longer being your person. I'm sorry for not making all those memories like we planned. I'm sorry for not being your future bridesmaid. I'm sorry for not living next to each other and growing old together. I'm sorry for everything that ever happened between us. I'm sorry for the fighting, the tears, the anger, and most of all, for not having you in my life anymore.
Even though we are no longer friends, I want to thank you. Thank you for making me laugh until I could no longer breathe. Thank you for picking me up when I was down. Thank you for knowing exactly what to say when I was in one of my moods. Thank you for the countless nights where we would stay up late and just talk. Thank you for being you. Thank you for making me who I am today. But most of all, thank you for showing me how to be a true friend. Without you, I would have never known what to look for in a best friend. Without you, I probably would not have met my current best friend. I wouldn't have the relationship I have with her if you didn't show me what that was all about.
I miss you.... a lot. Sometimes I go through old photos of us on Facebook and I just laugh. I often wonder what was going through our heads when I look back at those crazy pictures. I often find myself on your Facebook or Instagram and smile. You seem so happy. I am happy that you are happy. Hopefully, your current best friend treats you right, because I only want the best people to be your friends.
I often get asked how you are these days and it saddens me to know that I really don't know how you are. I find myself wishing we could catch up, but I know nothing will ever be as it was before. Just know, that if you ever need anything or need someone to talk to, I am only a phone call away. I will always be here for you, just like we said all those years ago.
I love you more than words can describe,
Your Ex-Best Friend
