I can't remember everything from when you came into this world. I was only three at the time. I do remember that you were a little bundle wrapped in blue.
I don't want to dwell on you first coming into this world to much. You were my little brother, So I remember all the games we played. The fights we had, and the love that we secretly shared. We were young when Beau passed away, I was going to be turning four and you were about a year and a half. I remember things changed in our life at that point. But, I'm not sure if you do. I remember that nanny and pawpaw helped mom and dad out a lot when it came to you and I. They had just lost a child, they needed time to mourn. I wanted to help with you. So, That's what I did.
As the years went by, I remember seeing myself as your mom in a way. I helped you get dressed in the morning for school, I sat by you on the bus, I helped you know right from wrong. I remember when you were in Pre-K I would walk you to class. Do you remember all the times you made me late to class because you'd grab onto me and cry? I definitely remember those times, I hope you do to. There were days I'd hug you while you fell asleep.
I remember the days we would run around the yard and play power rangers. Or when we would ride our bikes around the camper shed and scream and laugh at one another. You were my best friend, that on some days I couldn't stand. We both enjoyed pokemon cards, and power rangers. When I wanted to play house or school, you wanted to go inside. We used to collect the grass from the yard when pawpaw got done cutting it, and we'd play a game named bank. The grass was our cash and we'd have to run around and collect it. Then we'd steal from each other. I know this game caused more bad then good.
There were a lot of days you were an annoying little brother I couldn't stand, but now that I am older I am thankful to have you. I look back on all the times that I once considered bad, and I am thankful that you were there to have for them. We helped each other through bad times. You were the best friend I never had to find. I know we have never had the best relationship but I want you to know that I am happy to have you in my life.
A brother is an annoying boy that you're stuck with. Not only am I thankful to have you as a brother, I am thankful to have you as my kids uncle. You're their favorite person, and they are yours. I am thankful that you're the annoying boy that I got stuck with is you. I am thankful my children have you as their Bubba.
