To the boy that couldn't keep my heart,

I felt on top of the world with you. I loved the adventures with our friends, driving around the island of Oahu, or stargazing on top of a cliff with the sound of the waves splashing and the moon above us. You made me feel part of something, a feeling I barely knew. Just being together was enough.

Until it wasn't.

Everything happened so slowly, and suddenly, we seldom saw each other. Uninteresting conversations became a routine. I spent nights crying and wondering how things went south, and you didn't notice what was going on. We talked, trying to work it out and you promised me you would change. I gave you multiple chances because I would tell myself, "Maybe this time he'll keep his promises."

Don't get me wrong. Through these times, we still made great memories, and I didn't doubt my love for you. I wanted us to work out so desperately that I would accept such a low bar of effort for awhile.

Then, it was a battle between self-worth and you.

Personally, one of the worst things you ever said to me was "I don't deserve someone like you" because it confused me. If you think that, why are we together? It made me angry you thought such a thing while failing to work toward being a person that does deserve me. Signs constantly came my way that told me we weren't meant to be.

After a lot of thinking and talking to my friends, I finally listened.

Now that we're in this weird stage of post-breakup and not knowing where to draw the line of communication, I'm not angry anymore. I still miss you and I think I will for a long time. Above everything else, I'll always care about you and hope someday you learn consideration for yourself and for others. I hope we reconnect someday, and I hope your life is something amazing.

From,

The girl that needed to think for herself