There’s always been that one person that makes your heart beat 10 times faster.
You can’t help but to smile when he’s around. You can’t help but to stare at your phone, hoping for his name to pop up on the screen. Wondering if you should text him first or if he cares about you at all.
He’s on your mind all the time.
But chances are, you aren’t on his.
There comes a time when we must realize this isn’t healthy. It isn’t healthy to think about someone all the time when they don’t reciprocate. You might think he’s interested. He talks to you in class, he asks where you are when all your friends are hanging out, he smiles when he sees you.
But it isn’t love.
It’s attention, something a lot of people can’t tell the difference between.
I admit, I used to be this girl. I used to be the girl that would wait months for the guy to finally tell me how he feels, but it never came.
However, I continued to wait. I continued to do what he wanted, because that's what I thought he needed to finally want me.
Over time, you learn a lot about yourself. You get a glimpse of how you think, how you love. You learn what you want in a relationship. You learn the difference between attention and love.
I learned that I need someone who will be there for me whenever I need him. No matter how moody I am or how happy I am, I always want him to put a smile on my face. I want the butterflies in my stomach to flutter all day. I want to be myself.
I know what I deserve and now it’s time you all find out what you really need in your lives. I promise attention isn’t as good as it seems. Love lasts a lifetime, but attention only lasts if you let it.