One of by bigger fears in life used to be something most people don't really think about. I was so scared to ever sit at a table alone. I was terrified of what people would think about me. One day I just decided I had enough. I was on my lunch break from work and I really wanted Panera but I was sans lunch date, so I decided to do it. I went to lunch alone. (Que the Jaws theme song here).
Okay I know may sound a tad bit dramatic about this topic but its true. I was always too scared to be vulnerable. Especially sitting at the lunch table in high school. Over my dead body would I sit alone at lunch. One good thing came out of that mindset, I was able to make new friends. Anyways, by alone in the middle of Panera as an adult, just being in the moment I realize that no one really cared. I also realized that it was okay to just spend time with myself. Taking a book with me also help keep me from staring at strangers that passed by. Another thing I would have never been caught dead attending alone, a movie at the theater. But guess what? It's now one of my favorite past times. Of course, it's must more enjoyable with a fellow movie-goer but if I go alone, I at least get to pick the movie and that's worth it.
