To You,

It hurts when you have to let someone go even if you don’t wish to because both of you believe it is for the better. Although the right decision was made, you still feel constantly sad because now the situation is unfamiliar, unfamiliar because you had a companion for over six years and now you don’t. Sometimes this unfamiliarity is too scary, too new to adapt to.

If I were to write about the amount of pain the loss of a loved one causes, I could go on forever, but I am not here to lament a loss, I am here because I am grateful, grateful for my experience with love, grateful for my experience with you.

Every relationship has its own imperfections and ours was no exception. Mistakes were made on both sides, hurtful words were spoken from both sides, but through it all, we survived, because we never saw the end, we just kept looking ahead.

You were always there to weed out whenever fear crept into my life, always there to guard me against any kind of sorrow that life brought along with it.

Plans were made, promises were promised to be kept, but adulthood came out of nowhere knocking on our doors and left off a package of dreams to be followed. I am not upset with you for having a different dream, a dream that was meant to take you through a different path than mine. I had to let go because our paths were different, our paths were to be explored alone.

I admit how towards the end it did get ugly because we projected our fears of letting each other go in the form of anger. However, I am not angry anymore, at you, or at the situation because sometimes, some are just not meant to stay, some just come into our lives with lessons to teach and lessons to learn. We both learned all that we could from each other and our relationship, we both exchanged our lessons and it was finally time to let go and as sad as it might seem there is more happiness to it than what meets our eyes.

Yet, If I told you that I am completely happy with where I am today, I would be lying to you and to myself. I am alright as long as I stay away, stay away from what triggers the pain, stay away from home, because the home had you in it and now that I’m here, I am unable to recognize it.

However, I have been worse, we have been worse, and just like we moved through our relationship, we can learn to move out of it, in a direction that will bring us liberation from pain, bring us closer to ourselves.

Although we are not the same, you are still here, still watching out for those who might cause me any more pain, still being my best friend and I am thankful for that. I am grateful for your ever enduring kind heart, your never-ending concern for my well being, your time and patience.

You prove it me every single time how love persists through everything, including growth and heartbreak and I am ever grateful to have felt it.

THANK YOU