My life is so hectic right now, I feel very discombobulated, kind of confused, and at a cross road. I feel that right now in my life that who I am and what I want to be is just so undetermined. Which is great but at the same time very disheartening, this is disheartening because I just feel that I don't have my life figured out or the certain skills I need, and I am about half way though college. Then it is great because I am not tied down by one singular thing and I have many options and paths that I can pursue. So I am kind of on the fence on how to feel about that. I am just emotionally kind of discombobulated because I feel that I am not personally as centered as I should be and at peace with myself, which is hard. I have been able to breathe a little easier because I do have some friends that bring me ease and peace, probably without even knowing it. I do feel by having these friends in my life things go a lot smoother and I feel I can let my guard down with them. Which is crazy because I have never felt that kind of trust or connection with any of my friends before. I do have my best friend whom I trust and are connected with but somehow this is different because I just feel it, there really are no words to describe it. I feel like that takes a little pressure off of me because with most other people I have to always be on edge and I can't relax. So my life is just a kamikaze of craziness and uncertainty sprinkled with a little bit of peace.
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Dammit, you made it. The final semester of your senior year. You’re at the top of the food chain of high school, and it feels so good. You’re probably praying this last semester flies by, that you get out of town as soon as possible.
At this point, you’re calling teachers by their first names, the entire staff knows you by name, and you’re walking around school standing tall, owning those hallways. You’re convinced you’re ready to leave and move on to the next chapter in your life.
You’ve already experienced your last football game, standing in the cold in the front row of the student section all season long, decked out in your school colors and cheering loud and proud. That is, until they lost, and you realized you will never have that experience again. Never again.
You already had your last winter break. Preparing and celebrating the holidays with your family, ice skating and sledding with your best friends. Those quiet nights alone in your room watching Netflix, taking for granted your loved ones just a few rooms away. Never again.
If you’re an athlete, you may have already played in your last game or ran your last race. The crowd cheering, proudly wearing your school’s name across your chest, giving it your all. For some, it may be the end of your athletic career. Before you knew it, you were standing in an empty gym, staring up at the banners and thinking about the mark you left on your school, wondering where on earth the time went. Never again.
I’m telling you right now, you’re going to miss it all. Everything you’ve ever known. Those early mornings when you debate going to first hour because you really need those McDonald’s hash browns. The late nights driving home from practice, stopping for ice cream of course, ready for a late night of homework. Getting food on a whim with your friends. Endless fights with your siblings. Your favorite chips in the pantry. A fridge full of food. Coming home to and getting tackled by your dog. Driving around your hometown, passing the same sights you’ve seen every day for as long as you can remember. Hugs from your mom after a long day. Laughs with your dad. And that best friend of yours? You’re going to miss them more than anything. I’m telling you right now, nothing will ever be the same. Never again.
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Before you start packing your bags, slow down, take a deep breath, and look around. You’ve got it pretty good here. The end of your senior year can be the time of your life; it’s truly amazing. So go to the winter dance, go to Prom, spend Senior Skip Day with your classmates, go to every sporting event you can, while you still can. College is pretty great, but it’s the little things you’re gonna miss the most. Don’t take it for granted because soon, you’ll be standing in a packed gym in your cap and gown, wondering where the heck the time went. You’ve got a long, beautiful life ahead of you, full of joy but also full of challenges. You’re going to meet so many wonderful people, people who will treat you right and people who won’t.
So, take it all in. Be excited for the future and look forward to it, but be mindful of the present. You’ve got this.
A bucket list is simply a list of your life goals that you want to accomplish. Your bucket list should be filled with very exciting and grand items, like running a marathon in all 50 states or like traveling half the world. Each year i pick out the certain things that I try to accomplish that year! This year I decided to create one for everyone so that they could challenge themselves by going above and beyond to do these items on the list. It's not like it's impossible but you must make time out of your schedule to do these things. Some of the items are actually funny and daring to do but once you do them you can cross out one of the items of your list! Here's to 2019 with 19 things you should try to have on your bucket list!