Fear has always held me back. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of not being good enough. Anything that I have ever wanted to do, but have not done, is a direct result of the insane amount of fear that I possess. I have passed on an insane amount of opportunities because I was scared.
And then one day a friend of mine pointed out how stupid that is.
I was letting amazing opportunities pass by my very eyes because I would think, "Well what if I get rejected?" Well then, I get rejected. And that's okay.
I'm not going to get everything that I want in life. The internship, the job, the boy, the dog. For years I thought I could control everything. I applied to jobs I knew I could get, didn't talk to boys ever, and ultimately created a safe little bubble that would be very hard to disturb. This bubble became what I thought was my safe place. In all reality it was the most detrimental to my wellbeing because it nurtured these fears. It encouraged me to not step out of my comfort zone.
But that same friend pointed out how stupid that is, too.
So now, I just go for it. I applied for jobs that are so beyond my skill-set, but they're my dream so I did it. I applied for out-of-state internships that could kickstart my career in the best direction possible. I texted the boy first instead of playing the waiting game. I did everything that I never would have done before and was ready to embrace rejection.
But the craziest thing happened when I took those leaps of faith. They actually paid off.
The job I thought I could never get? I had an interview for last week. The internship that could potentially change my career forever? Yeah, have that interview next week. As for the boy? It's amazing what happens when you text someone, they tend to reply.
I spent all of this time thinking that the world was out to get me and every time I even attempted to make a move I'd be faced with a big, giant "No!"
So, I think that you should go for it, too! Whatever is holding you back and making you feel like you can't, I promise you, you probably can. Try not to let it hold you back. I know that it's hard, but it's worth it. If you go for it, it has the potential to be the best thing that could ever happen to you.
Go for it. Do it. It could change your life.
