Friends.

Have you ever wanted to just control every bit of your life?

How people treat you, react to you. When you’ll finally get over that issue/insecurity. How people look at you from the outside. Have you ever even wanted to just seem like you have your life under control on your own?

I do.

Sometimes I want to seem like I have my life under control because people around me seem like they do too.

I basically just figured this out about myself. I was sitting in a sermon last week at church and our pastor was talking about how Moses had a control issue (in Exodus). At first in my mind, I was like “Wow…that’s crazy that everyone sees Moses as a selfless warrior for Christ when he also wore a mask. He wanted to control the situation on his own so people would see how great he is.”

Our pastor went on about how Moses did amazing, selfless things but also tried to be his own God at times. Now, I’m not bashing Moses. To me, he’s one of the most amazing men in the bible as we see God work through him to bring the Hebrews to the promise land. But, we also learn that he, too, wanted to be in control.

As I was sitting in church, I realized that my pastor wasn’t just talking about Moses. He was talking about me.

I hope I’m not the only one.

Here’s the bottom line of what I learned:

We are not God; we will fail every time.

And there is so much grace in that. I’m so thankful that Jesus doesn’t look down on me or judge me in my moments of trying to take His place.

If you’re like me, take off your mask. It’s okay if people see the wrinkles, the damage, the real you beneath it. You don’t have to try and look like you’re in control of your life because we’re all kinda lost and we all need a lot of Jesus.

Jesus didn’t die so that we could just figure out life on our own. Jesus also didn’t die so that we could pretend we can carry ourselves.

Jesus died so that we could lean on Him with our broken selves, and He can carry us into our future.

Friend, that is where the real freedom is found.

Well, the jig is up. Y’all know what’s really going on in my heart.

What a refreshing feeling when you don’t have to hide anymore.

You should try it.

I see where our real joy comes from being found out so Jesus can find us.

Sometimes, I think Jesus intentionally leads us into moments like this. Moments where we realize how desperately we need Him to be in control just so He can show His kind, accepting hearts toward us.