My graduation date is approaching quicker than I have anticipated. I have a million of thoughts of what to do next running through my head that I'd rather just take a nap. I noticed that I have this sudden itch to leave Stephenville which honestly doesn't go away until I am outside of the city limits. Then I realized that leaving isn't such a bad thing. Leaving home and getting away from the drama you have dealt with for months on end is finally going to stop. It makes me excited to just go pack up my bags, kiss my family good-bye and leave.
This is how I knew it's time to leave:
After coming back from London, I knew my heart yearned for something bigger and better than home. Stephenville will always be home but it is time to find a place that no matter where I go, going back there will be my new home.
It's time for a change of pace and scenery. Don't get me wrong, I love living in Cowboy Capital of the World but I need green hills or an ocean breeze. I will miss the smell coming from the dairies and ranches. A change of pace will allow me to be in situations where I have to grow and grow fast. In today's society, if you don't grow fast like everyone else, you're going to be left behind.
I'm not going to find what I am looking for in Stephenville. My family and I have lived in Stephenville for 22 years. I have always told my parents that I will never find a boyfriend or husband in Stephenville unless God has a sense of humor *I think He does.* He gave me a heart of traveling and I will use it as long as He lets me.
I'm bored but broke. There have been plenty of times where people wanted me to go at a drop of a hat for some adventure. I am one of those people who can do that, but I can't when I don't have money. I am ready to have a job or to be a part of something greater that will allow me to financially support myself and my traveling habits.
I am ready to let my parents have their house back. For some time, both my sister and I were out of the house and they were empty nesters. They loved it until I moved back in. Now that my sister has moved to another town, I feel like it is time for me to go as well to let them have some time of their own.
Stephenville will always be home. My family will always be my home, but it's time for me to go. Even though I do not know where I am going or what I am going to do, I believe and trust in Christ to set out the plan and location for me. I am not ready to grow up and be an adult, but I know that it's time to become one. I am thankful for my parents for raising me to become an independent young lady to conquer the world.
It's time to leave.
