When I was in high school you could definitely say I was the type of girl who had her you-know-what together. I always knew what I wanted, what I was supposed to be doing, and probably what everyone else was supposed to be doing as well. Considering all of this, I thought college would be a breeze. I’d be an engineer or a doctor or whatever I wanted and it would all be easy and simple. Needless to say, I was very, very wrong.
I registered for a bunch of different classes because all subjects in high school, thankfully, came pretty easy to me, so I assumed in college they still would. I didn’t quite realize that just because I was good at something didn’t mean that I had a passion for it. I very quickly came to the realization that I had absolutely no clue what in the hell I was doing. I was sad, anxious and extremely confused. I didn't love my classes, I didn't have a major and I definitely wasn't loving this whole college thing. How could the girl who had it all together somehow have nothing together?
Some serious soul searching was in order. I had no idea what I was doing, and I thought there was something terribly wrong with that. However, with time I declared a major and started getting into some stuff I liked. I still don't know if that was totally for me, and, if I'm being totally honest, I'm in the process of changing my major again. I still don't really know what I'm doing, and I've come to the realization that it's totally okay.
Life has so many ups and downs, and you'll probably find yourself in a situation on the daily where you don't know what the heck is going on. Yet, life has seemed to work out just fine, right? That's because it's okay to not know what's going on or what you're supposed to do all the time. Once I accepted the fact that I can only control myself I realized that these crazy things in life will somehow fall into place, and it'll either benefit us or we'll just learn from it. I'm starting to find happiness in my classes, and I know I'm making my way to the right path. I also learned that I'm really not a fan of biology no matter how easy it may have been in high school. Life is a journey with many winding paths, and it's our job to create our map, even if that takes some off-roading and being a little lost. It's TOTALLY okay to not know what you're doing all the time because, honestly, who does?
