It's 3 a.m. and I find myself missing you again.
It comes in waves.
Sometimes weeks will go by and I won't think of you.
Sometimes a certain restaurant will remind me of you.
It sure doesn't hurt like it used too.
I remember that disability feeling of missing you.
It would hurt like I was punched in the stomach every time I saw your name.
Now it is just a reminder.
It is a reminder of how much different life really is without you in it.
I find myself more at peace just knowing that you are gone and the constant maybes about you is a clear answer now.
But it doesn't mean I still don't miss you.
You were more than a friend to me, I considered you family.
Family fights and that is why I always felt comfortable saying how I truly felt about certain
situations with you because I always thought, family is forever.
My heart is too big for my own good.
I project more love than I could ever receive & I used to wanted every ounce of it back but I realized I could never be happy doing that.
Doing something for someone else and seeing their happiness that you brought them, thats all the repaying I need nowadays. I guess thats what happens to you when you lose someone you thought would be around forever.
You learn to appreciate everything around you a lot more.
You realize how much peopler really do impact your life.
You impacted my life.
You Helped shape me into the person I am.
But, you leaving has definitely made me a better person.
So I guess all I can say is thanks.
Thank you for helping make me into the person I am today.
Thank you for always being way to real with me when I didn't want to hear it but you knew I had too.
Thank you for making me truly feel like apart of your family, thats the part that hurts the most.
My love for you is unconditional and maybe one day we will be okay again but for right now, its better for us both to grow without each other for now, but until we meet again, I wish you absoutley nothing but the best.