I’m tired of my friends being envious. I’m tired of hearing comments like, “Omg, you’re sooo skinny,” or “I wish I looked like you.” I’m tired of getting that expression from my friends when they see how I look in certain pieces of clothing or outfits. I’m tired of people being so surprised when they see my diet compared to my body. I’m tired of being permanently labeled by my appearance.
Nobody likes to talk about their weight or appearance. Nobody likes when there is attention drawn to their body. I sure don’t, even when it’s my friends telling me how good I look in something because I can see that look in their eyes or hear the not-so-sincere tone in their voice. And nobody likes when someone makes them feel bad or insecure about how they look. It’s obvious that body image is the biggest insecurity that people have. But a lot of people think that skinny people don’t insecurities when it comes to their bodies because they’re skinny?
For the longest time, I loved being able to eat whatever I wanted and not have that one roll at dinner or cookie for dessert go straight to my hips or my pouch. But now? Sometimes I wish it would so my peers would stop judging me for it because their bodies aren’t the same as mine.
There have been times in my life when I lived in baggy clothing, sweatpants, and hoodies, so I didn’t draw attention to my thin waist. That lasted for a while. And then I gained such confidence, after going through some major life hiccups, and wanted to show off my body. Then something happened, a comment or remark or whatever, that made me want to go back to my old ways. This is a never-ending cycle. Just the other night I was at an event and I was wearing a bodycon dress and heels, and the comments were never ending. First from my friends.
“Jill, you look so skinny in that dress!”
“Wow, could your dress get any shorter or tighter?”
And my personal favorite, “Wow! You’re like a little present and have been hiding this whole time!”
How am I supposed to respond to these comments? Is everyone expecting me to apologize for being skinny? I hope not, because I will not. I’ll just sulk and feel bad about myself for a while. Which, in my opinion, is ridiculous. The fact that our society puts so much pressure on appearance that someone who was once super confident about themselves, isn't because of how others make them feel. Just because I’m skinny doesn’t mean I like to talk about it. Just because I’m skinny doesn’t give you the right to criticize me for it. I’m tired of being the “skinny girl.”
