The people who think life is supposed to be all sunshine and rainbows are going to be set up to be disappointed in the long run.
Of course, we cherish the happier memories and the times where we felt most at peace with our self, but to say that is what life is all about would be a lie. It's okay to fear, to cry, to experience heartbreak, and feel other negative emotions. In fact, it is about time we stop suppressing these feelings and instead embrace it when we feel shaken to our core.
As bizarre as it may sound, I'm thankful I get to experience heartbreak in different forms and I am thankful to experience sleepless nights with my head buried in my pillow and tears falling out of my eyes. In these moments where we see ourselves at our worst, we learn more about our self than ever before.
Sadness is such a raw feeling, and with the one life we have, I believe getting to experience every emotion in the book is a privilege. Living a life without heartbreak is like a life in a fantasy fiction, it doesn't happen.
While you go through phases in life where you see yourself at your worst, it's important to have the time to just grieve. The whole "distract yourself" and "surround yourself with people who love you" sayings are true, and it's something almost everyone tells you when you're in these kinds of battles with yourself, but distracting yourself only goes so far when you're going through something so devastating.
Because no matter what, the thoughts are still creeping in the back of your head even if you are having so much fun with your friends in the moment.
It's okay to cry, to be sad, to get frustrated, what's not okay is pretending the hardship occurring has vanished and that you simply are putting on this front that everything is fine when you know it's not. You never realize how foreign the idea of heartbreak is until you experience it for the first time. Even after several heartbreaks, the feeling is just as bad.
What we forget is that it is completely normal to experience such an emotion.
My best advice for people experiencing these feelings; time heals. When you feel like you'll never seek light again, you will. And I know this because I have. We may mess up, fail, and be let down, but what's important is to remember that failure, whether it be seeing it in yourself or someone close to you, is indeed the pathway to wisdom.