I always put others before myself.

I drop everything for my friends when they say they need help or need to vent. I have been told I'm "supportive" and "so caring". While I thrive off the compliments, I just wish it can be reciprocated, even just once every so often. If I have a bad day, I know someone is having it worse. So I push down my own emotions and hold them in because "I'm the strong friend who has it put together and always helps others".

It has began to take a toll on me, I love being the supportive friend, don't get me wrong. Starting this moment, I am putting myself first more often. The amount of time I spend helping others heftily outweighs helping myself.

I am putting myself first, physically.

I want to make fitness a priority again. Having set sports practice time in High School was awesome. It was like a designated stress relief time every day. I am going to set aside time (almost) every day to incorporate that stress relief again.

I am putting myself first, mentally.

I want to make my mental health a priority. By prioritizing, organizing, and taking a minute to debrief and breathe I will be able to accomplish this.

I am putting myself first, emotionally.

I want to be able to accept the fact that it is okay to have an off day. I always bottle up my emotions until they explode because I am the friend to help and advise others. Instead, I need to use that advice I give to others and apply it to my own life. And realize it is okay to cry every once and a while.

I am putting MYSELF first.

Though it will be a tough task, I am putting myself first. It may be hard, but I need to be selfish just this once. One of the best compliments I have received is "You have a great heart Hannah."

My heart is so full for others, now I need to take a piece of it and dedicate it to myself.