I'm Not A Christian, But I Love Jesus
Start writing a post
Politics and Activism

I'm Not A Christian, But I Love Jesus

Why this label is causing my self-destruction and pushing me farther away from Jesus

I'm Not A Christian, But I Love Jesus

I'm going to start this article by saying something rather bold:

I'm not a Christian.

Growing up, I always knew Jesus. I knew who He was, and what He did for me. I don't have a troubled start to my testimony - I was a normal kid who loved Jesus. I was saved when I was ten, and then later baptized when I was twelve, just after my first beach camp with our church. The next seven years were been filled with doubt, loss, hope, confusion, laughter, heartache and tears - oh-so many tears, and yet, through this emotional roller coaster I've been through, the one constant thing in my life was Jesus. Even when I would doubt, He was there waiting on His lost little sheep to find her way back to the pasture. Now, as an adult, He is still here with me and guides me to this day.

...but I'm not a Christian.

When I, and many others, think of the word "Christian", it brings an array of adjectives to the front of my mind. "Snob," "prude," "stick in the mud," and "Holier than thou" are just a few. Let me ask you this: how did identifying as a follower of Christ get turned into a who-can-Instagram-the-most-Bible-verses competition? Why are we comparing how many likes we got on our quoting scripture Tweet to eternity? Do people think that God is tallying up how many Amens you shared on Facebook?

I'm tired of comparing myself to other Christians. That's not why I am here. I am on this Earth for a reason. Showing off how many pairs of Chacos I have or how many times a week I go to Chick-Fil-A is not that reason.

I'm going to let you in on a little secret, internet:

I'm not perfect.

I'm clumsy.

I cuss way too much, especially if I bump into something, drop something, or get mad at something.

I get mad way too easily.

I don't read my Bible every day.

I don't listen to KLOVE or Air1 every waking second.

I really like secular music.

I laugh at things I probably shouldn't laugh at.

I'm pro-choice. I don't believe in abortion, but it is not my right to tell you what to do with your body.

I'm pro-Black Lives Matter.

I'm pro-Blue Lives Matter.

I'm pro-marriage equality.

I'm pro-gender equality, including women getting a draft card. Personally, I think that the draft system should just be gotten rid of, but that's another article for another time.

Out of all of these things, I love the Lord my God. But when I look at other Christians around me, I feel so insecure in my faith. Am I not praying enough? What am I doing wrong?

Then I realize: their story is different from mine. They are doing what I am striving to do.

Do I stumble? yes.

Am I perfect? Absolutely not.

Am I loved? Absolutely.

Am I saved? Yes.

I'm not a Christian. I am an imperfect, abandoned heart running to follow my Savior.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.

8 Misconceptions About Hanukkah

It is so much more than "Jewish Christmas."

PX Here

Happy Hanukkah! A lot of people don't seem to understand what the holiday entails, resulting in some pretty interesting misconceptions. I am here to debunk them.

Keep Reading... Show less

Six Lies Fed to Your Mind, By Your Mind.

These thoughts will drive you mad.


Life is hard, and is even harder with a mental illness. Even if you aren't clinically diagnosed with depression or anxiety, in the hardest times of your life you can probably associate with several of these thoughts. Fear not, everyone else is thinking them too. Maybe we just need a big, loving, group therapy session (or six).

Keep Reading... Show less

A Letter To My Heartbroken Self

It will be okay, eventually.

A Letter To My Heartbroken Self

Breakups are hard. There's nothing comparable to the pain of losing someone you thought would be in your life forever. Someone who said all the right things at the right times. Someone who would give you the reassurance you needed, whenever you needed it. And then one day, it just... stops. Something changes. Something makes you feel like you're suddenly not good enough for him, or anyone for that matter.

Keep Reading... Show less

2026: the year the Fifa World Cup Returns to North America

For the first time since 1994 the United States will host a world cup (for men's soccer)

2026: the year the Fifa World Cup Returns to North America
Skylar Meyers

The FIFA World Cup is coming to North American in 2026!

Keep Reading... Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments