I'm Just Trying To Figure Out My Future

I'm Just Trying To Figure Out My Future

With only one year of college left, it's time to really start thinking about the future.

Where am I going? What am I doing? How do I become an adult? These are the questions daunting my second-semester junior year of college brain. My last year of college life is quickly approaching (much sooner than I’m ready for).

So where can my degree take me? I’m pursuing a bachelor’s degree in Multimedia Journalism with a concentration in magazine, and a minor in Marketing. Clearly, my studies are very communications based, but what does that actually mean for me when I leave school?

Recently, I chose my classes for the fall semester of my senior year (SAY WHAT?!). There’s nothing like that rush you get when you are frantically searching your course codes on the school’s database, and then going back to find your ‘runner-up’ choice of class because your first pick filled up, and so on and so forth until you have formulated the perfectly timed and selected schedule. But the fact that my senior year is my last chance to get all of my requirements completed (if I want to graduate on time, which I DO), adds a whole new aspect of frantic. Thankfully, I was able to maneuver my remaining credits and classes around to fit for the upcoming semester (with a day off, may I add). Oh, and I applied to graduate, which gave me a mix of excitement, relief, and pure terror (am I really ready to leave school?).

Well, here’s the thing, I’m not actually sure if I want to leave school (I mean I know I want to leave my current college after I graduate), I possibly want to go to graduate school and get a master’s degree. “But a Master’s in what?” you may ask… well, I’m pretty sure I’d like to study business. I have been told many times by former professors and other students that there is not much of a point in getting a master’s in journalism. So, I’m figuring business will be quite useful in wherever life takes me in my career, (that is if I go to grad school).

If I choose to not take the grad school route, well where am I going? I hope to get a paid internship or entry-level job in my field as soon as possible following graduation. Yet, after having a taste of living in Europe for the year (I’m studying abroad at the moment), I’d love to look for opportunities in journalism and communications overseas. With my mindset for my future being global rather than desiring to stay where I’m from (Chicago), it opens up an entire world (literally) of opportunities, whether it be to further my education or begin a career.

Whatever I may choose, I’m not going to worry about it for the time being. I want to enjoy my last year of college with the friends I have made along the way (and work my butt off). No, I do not have all of my ducks in a row just yet, and that’s okay, because I’m still figuring out what I want my future to look like.

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You May Have Worn The Prom Dress With Him, But I Get To Wear The Wedding Dress

You had him in high school, but I get him for the rest of my life.

High school seems like the best time of your life when you are in it. You think that all of your friends will be with you until the end, and that you will end up with whoever you are dating your senior year. For very few, that might just be the case. For all others, that is far from true.

You thought that you would marry your boyfriend and you thought that everything would work out how you had always imagined. I don't blame you though. He's great. You wanted everything with him, but you were just not right for him.

I wish I could say that I am sorry it didn't work out for you, but I can't. I can't because he is mine now, and I get to cherish him forever. You didn't do that right, and you were not meant to be together. You will find someone too, but I am happy that you were not the one for him.

Sometimes I have issues with jealousy, and I hate that you got all of the high school stuff with him. You got to go to games and support him. It kills me that I couldn't be there for him because I know I would have actually been there wholeheartedly. I would have done it out of love, not as a popularity appearance.

I hate that you got to go to all of the school dances with him. He got to see you all dressed up and probably told you how great you looked. I'm sure you did look great. Prom dresses were always fun to pick out and so colorful. It was exciting to match colors with your date. I am sure you had fun choosing his matching tux to your dress.

I find myself getting jealous, but then I stop. I am getting to match his tux with our wedding colors. I got to go dress shopping in a sea of white, and he doesn't get to know one detail about that dress yet. He will get to see me walk down the aisle and then every day forever. I get to love him forever.

I try to not get jealous of all of the things you got with him because it is all in the past. You had your time, and now I get the wedding. You got to dress up in high school, but I get to dress up for my wedding with him. He may have put a corsage on your wrist, but he will be putting the wedding ring on my finger.

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I Expected It To Have It All Together By 22 And I'm Still Far From That

What we expected and what reality actually is, are two completely different things...


Oh our 20s, how we expected them to be so different. We expected to graduate college at 22, have a career by 23, be engaged by 24, married with a house by 25, kids by 26-28, vacationing with the family by 30, and retired by 60. We expected college to be parties and cute boys/girls. Instead, we got late nights of studying and crying after a job that barely pays for our car, food, dorm, and textbooks. We get no social life and if we do our grades suffer for it.

Our 20s were expected to be all fun but all we got were struggles and stress. I mean I don't know about you but I expected, to have it all together and I'm nearly 23 and far from it. I had all the scholarships and great grades, and I still don't have any type of degree.

Reality hits after 18. Most of us don't have the help of mom and dad anymore. We have to find our way and make a path for ourselves. Sometimes our dreams and goals have to be put on hold for that. The 20s isn't fun. It's about discovering who you are, who you want to be, and where you want to go. Some of us serve our country, some become incarcerated, some of us parents, some teachers, others cops, others travel or study abroad, some dead, some ill, other managers, others homeless, some still living home, and some even addicts.

The weird thing about your 20s is everyone is doing something different, but yet everyone is confused and comparing themselves to others. People feel if they're not doing what others are doing, in their age group then they have failed themselves. What people forget is that with life comes obstacles and sacrifice and everyone's life and situations are different. You are where you need to be right now, for you, and I think that's something to remember in your 20s.


Another thing about your 20's is you're free to think for yourself now. No more having to follow a religion you dislike or hold back from things you love. The world is literally yours to discover and learn from. Possibilities are endless! I think your 20's are the years you create yourself to the best version of you and build the foundation for your future. Just remember, we all build at our own pace.


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