If you're reading this, I'm so sorry.
If you're reading this, it probably means your broken and/or lost.
But I'll let you in on a little secret, it's going to get better. It's just going to take some time. Or maybe a lot of it.
So breathe. Scream. Cry.
Because this is how you're going to put yourself back together after they break you.
Remember the story of Humpty Dumpty? When he has his great fall and everyone jumps in to help put him back together and everything was fine? News flash: that story is a load of bull. Not everyone is going to jump to your rescue and try to put you back together. And it's definitely not going to be fine. That's a little harsh, but it's true.
Step One: Breathe.
The longer you hold your breath, the more likely you are to suffocate.
Take a deep breath and let the weight lift off your shoulder for just a minute. Step outside and smell the roses.
You can't hold yourself under water forever. Come up for air and relax for a second. It's going work itself out.
Step two: Scream.
You are entitled to be angry. As angry as possible. Even if you don't want to be or can't be.
And you're probably bottling it all up, but that's not safe. You could blow at any given moment and you really don't want to let it out on the wrong person.
Lock yourself in your room, burry your face in a pillow, and let out the biggest scream you can. It can be a little stress relieving honestly.
Confront the person that did this to you and put them in their place. Let them see the damage they've caused. Even if they don't understand, at least you tried.
Get angry, stay mad, let it out. You'll give yourself a big pat on the back afterwards.
Step three: Cry.
If you haven't already, you're totally going to. Just wait.
Do whatever you need to do to get it out of your system. From watching sappy movies or drowning yourself in a sugar coma or even rereading old messages if you really need to. That's not not the most ideal thing to do though.
Cry your heart out because it hurts. Cry so much you almost run out of tears.
I promise you won't come out of this dry eyed. Maybe for a day, but definitely not for long.
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I know this fight is hard but it will get better. Just wait. Do whatever it is you need to do to help yourself heal. You're your own number one, you gotta help yourself first.
You've come this far, you can definitely get through this. I believe in you.
Let it out, then let it go.
Better things are coming.