You knew a couple of weeks back that this thing, what ever it was, wasn't feeling the same as it had in the beginning. You have taken that last step, making it far too real and realizing that those late-night phone calls and midnight snaps will be no more, simply by the swipe of your finger.
You go to your contacts folder, scroll to his name, click on it, press edit with your now trembling thumb and scroll down to the very bottom of the edit page, wondering why they would put the delete function so far down. Do they not know that deleting is hard enough as it is? Do they not understand the turmoil you have had to endure just to reach this point? And now you have to scroll miles down to actually do the deed? Something is wrong with this.
If these people knew anything about contact deletion or anything about life, for that matter, they would understand that deleting is not only sensitive, it is tragic. Rant aside, when the delete contact button is finally reached, you stare at it for a moment, feeling your aortic valve about to burst. Contain this wave of emotion. This is not the most difficult thing you have ever been through. Take a deep breath and, just like that, he has been deleted.
He is no longer anywhere in your contacts, therefore he is no longer in your life. Ha, ha. Yeah, right. See, deleting is that last step in knowing that something (a "thing," a FWB, a BF) is over – well, kind of. Read on. Now, you are no longer able to drunk text, drunk call, "accidentally" snap, religiously check your story to see if he viewed it. The thing is officially over, at least for you.
Deleting puts you back in control. Clearly, something must have led to the act of deletion. Perhaps you have not talked for some time, or he has been opening your snaps without replying or you are just sick of feeling like you are the only one who is really into this "thing." Either way, up until this point, all of the actions of your "thing" have been determined by him, and that is not acceptable.
So, what do you do? You delete him. Why put yourself through the temptation of texting him, calling him, snapping him? Let's face it, sometimes we are not strong enough to not. That is the beauty of getting rid of his contact all together – it's a freeing process and, at the end of it, you are left feeling like the strong and in control woman you were before you even had his number.
