I pride myself in always finding the positive.

It's a common fact about me that I always have a smile on my face and seek gratitude in all situations. It's something I'm known for — and am constantly reminded of.

But when times get tougher or I just need to take a break from showcasing my smile, it becomes all the more noticeable. And most of the time people take note of that change. So it becomes a common conversation among those around me, when my mood is a little off, to ask me what's wrong or ask me why I'm not smiling. While mental health conversations are important to have and I'm thankful that those around me who care enough to ask, it still seems like a lot of pressure on myself.

Pressure can come from a comment applauding my positivity or acknowledging my consistent smile — because once those fade it becomes a prevalent part of the conversation.

So why do I feel bad when my mood is off? Why do I get an anxious feeling like I am expected to put on a facade of happiness to those around me?

The most important thing to remember during the times where I'm not adding much to the conversation or smiling as much as I usually do is that it's okay to feel this way. No one's asking for me to be a constant ray of sunshine — and I'm lucky enough to be surrounded by people who care and notice when things are different.

Having hard days are common. And just because you can find happiness and seek joy does not exclude you from feeling negative emotions. It's okay to feel that way — but it's even better to seek out help in times of darkness to help shine your light even more.