It’s very hard not run into you. Meeting you once was enough. But I knew this wouldn’t be the last time. I know you see and feel me hurting but there's not much you can do. Heartbreak you make me feel like I’m on a rollercoaster. I can’t breathe at one point and get angry that I decided to get on it in the first place.

Once I’m done crying and screaming I lose my breath because physically nothing can come back out. I’m speechless from the entire ride. You held my heart and would squeeze it until I couldn’t take it anymore.

You sting. You suffocate. You hurt so much both physically and emotionally. I hate that you make me feel empty for so long. I hate that you make me shut out all my friends and anything social in my life.

I hate that you make me starve because nothing seems worth it anymore. I hate that you make me feel dead inside. Although I still had blood pumping through my veins I wasn’t living anymore with you in my life. I hate that you will go on hurting other people. I hate that I never thought this would happen, but it happened.

But I do love you. I love that you made me experience this feeling because it will prepare me for the future. I love that you make me realize that this is not the end of my life. Most importantly I love that you made me grow and understand who you truly are so I can help others heal from you. I love that I met you sooner rather than later, because later it would have hurt even worse. I love that when I got over you I found better coping and better friends. I love that I will get over you. I can’t stop you from seeing other people even though I wish I could but I will love and hate those memories we share.

You were there for the death of a loved one, the end of friendship, the end of a relationship and the end of the truth. Thank you.