I am one for change. I constantly enjoy taking new adventures, trying to new things, redoing my room once a month, and constantly changing up my daily routines. Though I am one for change, I have now been in the same relationship for roughly two years and seven months. Through this experience of being in a serious committed relationship I have learned there are several upon several things a person can do right and wrong throughout many years of being involved with the same person. I have faced the fact that I am not always the most caring, loving, or responsive girlfriend in the world; what I do know though are the mistakes I have made and how to fix them to better the future of a relationship I hold dear and close to my heart.

To give a little background into my relationship, I met my boyfriend in the sixth grade. From then on we both had little crushes on each other and became very close friends for the next four and a half years. As I said I am always one to constantly change my mind on everything. As we started talking for about a month I was scared to actually give a real relationship, where I would have to introduce him to people I knew, a chance. After about a week I changed my mind and realized I might as well take a chance on a person I really liked, no matter how worried or scared I was. From then on there have been little rough patches where I have debated whether I wanted to be on my own due to the insecurities I faced of staying committed while also wanting to be my own person. After having these thoughts I always came back to realizing I needed this man to stay in my life.

At this point in my life and relationship I have learned to face my fears head on. I am scared about every aspect of my future life whether it be financially, job related, how my relationship will span out, or everything else there is to worry about. When you are in a committed relationship you need to be able to share your fears and concerns with your partner to better insure you both are headed down the same paths and know where your relationship is headed. My boyfriend is one to constantly think ahead into the future and aim higher than the goals he already has in place for himself. To often for my liking sometimes, he mentions how he wants our future together to hopefully play out. This frightens me for the fact that I hardly ever plan for more than the week ahead. He mentions topics of marriage and babies and making so much money he can live in a huge house right off the ocean.

While I may someday want all of these things, and more, the future scares me also for the reason that I am afraid to commit to things no matter the situation. Whether it be a room pattern, a job, or a relationship I will always be at least a little worried to commit myself to something or somebody. Though you could say I haven’t been the most dependable and uplifting girlfriend the last few years I do know for a fact that after the experiences I have encountered throughout my relationship I am committed to having a future life with my partner now more than ever. While we don’t always agree on everything or share the same values all the time I have learned what not to do in my relationship to better our future together.

You must always be open with your partner to make sure you are on the same page with each other to then insure that you both are still in the relationship for the same reasons. You have to be honest, yet caring to the others fears and concerns. Someday I want all the things he wants, but for now I want to focus on the present as the future is always changing.