I remember how badly I wanted to keep a daily journal in elementary school; I loved writing, and Junie B. Jones could do it so why couldn't I? I didn't realize how important it was, though. I just wanted it to be interesting so I always quit when my life seemed boring. I didn't understand how mighty the pen actually was; I wish I had learned that early on in life.

I didn't start to learn until years later when I was totally lost and stuck searching for myself in all the wrong places. I tried to find so many ways to deal with the internal conflict I was constantly battling, I was always looking for a way to fix myself. The problem was, I didn't even know myself. That was until I let the pen take over, and I dove so deep into my own mind that I was totally drowning in the best way possible.

I remember the first time I decided to write down what I was really feeling and the massive weight that was lifted off of my shoulders. I could take a step back and focus in on my life from the outside, I saw it from a different perspective and I could really get to know the person I was. That wasn't enough, though because that was also about the same time that I realized, I didn't like the person that I was. So, I decided to take my journaling to a spiritual level and that's when the healing finally began.

Prayer is so powerful, but written prayer is the most powerful weapon I possess. I noticed how much easier it became to speak to God after I let my thoughts flow onto paper. I wasn't even saved the first time I decided to call out to Jesus through my writing, but something told me that was the only way I was going to progress into the person I wanted to become. I wrote and He spoke. My journaling is what opened my heart to begin my journey with The Lord. Journaling literally saved my life- for eternity.

My journal is my lifeline, it is where I pour my heart out to The Lord and come out feeling brand new every time. I am a new person because I am living for Him, I am no longer lost because I have found Him, I like me because I love Him- and it all started when I let the pen touched the paper. My advice to anyone and everyone out there searching, "let your heart vomit on paper" and give it to God.