The thought of cutting my hair that I have been growing out for 4+ years terrified me. I actually got nervous and scared when the thought even crossed my mind. But yesterday, I had an epiphany and decided I should chop it and see where it gets me. So today, I chopped it. Just like that.
When I saw my hair falling to the floor it took all I had in me not to cringe and tell her to stop, but I knew that it was time to let it go. After it was all over and done, I actually felt lighter. It's a weird feeling, and hard to describe. It feels like a fresh start.
The past couple years, I have definitely done a lot of firsts, tried new things, and become more comfortable with myself then I ever have been in the past. It felt like this haircut would fit right into my pattern of change.
5 inches later it was done, and I felt great. It just felt like a new version of myself. It was something I had been scared of doing for so long, but once I did it I didn't regret it. That, like many other things in the past few years had fallen into place perfectly.
When we were in high school the teachers told us that changing your major was a part of college and everyone did it, and eventually discovered what they loved. I just didn't know it would actually be true for me. Starting off college I was an Interior Design major at SDSU. When that didn't work out, and I realized I wasn't happy where I was at, I made a move down South to USD, during my second semester of my freshman year. Once at USD, I decided I wanted to be a Business Marketing major. When that didn't quite work out, I tried once again to figure out what I was really passionate about.
It actually happened in an interview when I realized what I should be doing. The person who was interviewing me had also gone to USD, and was casually talking about how she was a Strategic Communications major and focused on PR. That, struck me as something I thought I could do. So second semester of sophomore year, I changed my major for the third and final time.
After that everything started falling into place for me. My friend group had changed, and I truly did find my best friends (how cliche). I have had some of the best times with them, and can't imagine going through life without them by my side.
Then, I decided to face my fear, and try out for the USD cheer team, and MADE IT. That was a shocker considering I went out on a limb with that one. More friends were made through that, and I had more of a feeling of belonging to something that was important.
So, when it came down to deciding whether or not I should cut my hair, the choice was relatively easy. I did it, couldn't be more happy, and hope I keep up with this trend of trying new and different things all for the sake of living an interesting life.
