Sometimes love isn’t the happily ever after, sometimes it’s the tears after the hang up. It’s the broken heart as you drive away for the last time knowing that it will be months before you see the other again; however, there are even worse moments. The ones where you know its over.

I gave you my heart while we sat there that night. I handed it to you without hesitation or reservation thinking that I found the one. I loved you or at least thought I did and wanted to for the rest of my life. I didn’t quite know what I was getting with you. It was the greatest time in the world. We would hold hands in the movie theatre, you would hug me and hold me, you were the person who made me feel safe. You would wrap your arms around me and tell me that it would be okay, tell me to breathe and I felt that it really would be… I would hear those words and just everything relaxed. I thought that ‘this was it.’ And I was okay with that because all I really wanted was you. Then the trust started to leave, I never knew what was going on with you or what you were thinking. It started feeling like you were just there because you felt obligated not because you wanted me. That’s when I broke. That’s when I thought I had lost it all and I really didn’t know what to do anymore so I ended it thinking it was the best thing for me.

Then I would hear little things about you and it killed me. “He is dating so and so did you hear”? people would always ask and always talk to me about you and every time I would pretend I was okay, I was fine and strong but in reality, I wasn’t. I broke every time I heard your name, every time I saw you, every time I had to hear of you with someone else...

I broke.

So this is where it stands. Now I have a boyfriend and I’m happy. I finally got over the brokenness and feelings of never having that again but in a way that is true. I will never have what we had again and nor do I want to. What I had with you was special, unique, different and amazing but just like with everything that ends it turned into memories. Never forget who we were but let it change who you are. Let the hurt that I felt and the pain that was caused by your actions actually hit home with you. Change who you are and make it better for the next person who comes into your life. Be the man I knew you could be… I knew you were.

Thank you for showing me that I was strong enough to fight for what I wanted and needed.

Now go out and do that for yourself. Stop living in denial, stop being scared of whats to come but go out and live it.