Dorm living is not easy. Being away from home is not easy. So excuse me if I feel better going home for two days out of the week, every week to have a decent shower without shoes on, where I can sit on the ground and cry, have a healthy and real meal, a comfortable and big bed and a decent adult conversation with my mom.
Excuse me for not wanting to deal with the drama of 36 girls in one cubical and lack of doing anything fun but drinking because I'm broke in a town with little to do. I love college. I love my independence, but sometimes it gets to be overwhelming and I just need a break. Stop judging me for that. Let me live my life how I want to. Stop telling me "I'm not doing college right" or, "Wow, you're really missing out," or that "I need to stop going home so often." I am really missing out? Missing out on the nights you can't remember? Because that's the only explanation of the weekend I hear when I get back on Sunday.
Sometimes I don't want my only option to be partying on a weekend. Sometimes it's nice to go hang out with my parents, go hunting or to concerts or anything other than being stuck in a 12x12 room with someone I barely know. I can't help but laugh at all the people who said those exact words to me but are now going home just as often, if not even more often than me now. Kind of ironic don't you think? Now you're the ones saying, "I love going home," and I'm over here saying, "I told you so," because it's nice being able to. Especially being 40 minutes from home where I have the ability to do so.
I shouldn't have to explain myself and the decisions I make about my college experience but I'm going to because I'm sick of hearing it. So next time you see me, leave my choices of going home out of the conversation. We're all different and we all adjust to situations different. I'm happy in my college experience and that's all that matters. Quit judging me and everyone else because it shows more about you than me. And hey, you might even end up finding yourself doing the exact same thing as I did.
