Finals week is upon us and many people are looking forward to finally being able to go home for winter break. They have already made plans with their friends and can not wait to be free of University life. But is this feeling of excitement shared by everyone? I for one, am not exceptionally thrilled by the thought of being home.

I have come home for a few weekends and more often than not, they made me quite depressed. I found that nearly none of my hometown friends reached out or made plans with me and that I had an overwhelming sense of unimportance fall over me. Now, understandably, everyone is likely busy, but it still feels weird watching everyone else enjoy themselves and not be a part of it. I guess I’m worried that it will always feel like this, as though I am an outsider.

It isn’t just friends that make me question being home, it is other things as well. One in particular being home responsibilities. I have gone months without true chores and it doesn’t sound thrilling to have to do those again.

Now, this one might sound weird, but I am going to miss campus food. Yes, gross I know. But the truth is, I love the convenience of the food here. I like that I have many options and it's easily accesible and now I have to go home and make all of my food myself. I'm going to miss being able to have the option to grab food from the cafe and eat with friends or relax in my dorm.

Don't get me wrong, I'm excited to be home, but it'll be hard. My life has become my college setting. The people I have close bonds with are here and it doesn't really feel like home where I grew up anymore. I hope that my fears are silly, but I'm worried.

So, I will make the most of what I can and regardless of what happens, I'll be back in school after winter intersession with a new outlook and tales to tell.