Dear Future Husband,

As your future wife, there are few things that I believe you should know about me. I hope this article will make it clear to you exactly who I am.

I am not a perfect girl. You know that image that society portrays? Long hair, skinny, tan, beautiful face, tall, works out, etc... that isn't me by any means. Well, let me rephrase that. I am tall and I do have long hair, but I am by no means skinny, fit or tan. Not to mention, this image also portrays that the girl is outgoing, no mental or physical issues at all. I am not outgoing at all. I tend to stay indoors and watch Netflix, I would much rather spend my time watching Friends than getting drunk and "living the life". I have anxiety and depression. I have not attempted suicide and I intend to never do so, I love myself in many ways, but sometimes things become hard for me.

Understand that I am the jealous and worry type. In the past, I have texted repeatedly because someone wouldn't respond or they read and are ignoring me. I'm not doing it to annoy you, I'm doing it because that's how I have learned to love. I am jealous because while you are out with friends you have the potential to forget all about me and find a better girl to go home with. I am the worrying type not only for the previous reason, but I am a lover of people. I hate seeing others get hurt and it severely effects me when it is someone I love.

I am a musician. I sing A LOT. Literally, I will start singing randomly and it will become so annoying people have wished I would lose my voice. Not that I am a bad singer, I'm pretty good (not to be conceited), people just HATE when I sing that much especially since it isn't of common interests. I sing opera or choral music, sometimes I even hum what instruments play.

Which bring me to another part of this... I also play the flute. I will randomly pull my flute out of its case when I am bored and start playing, sometimes for five minutes, sometimes two hours. It is all in my mood and my motivation that day. If you're a musician too, you understand that practice is crucial and precious to me. Being a musician, I get quite busy, sometimes I will not be home until 1 a.m. From All-Region tryouts to CPA/CBA 6 months later, my schedule will change frequently, even during the summer I have conferences.

With the increase in crime in the recent years, I have become even more terrified of being by myself. If I am ever home alone by myself overnight, I might call you multiple times complaining and having an anxiety attack. Again, I am not trying to annoy you. I think about the worst thing that can happen. I rarely think of the greener side of the meadow.

I talk a lot. You will probably think oh my, will she ever shut up... I don't mean to talk your head off and sometimes I stay quiet and think I am doing okay and next thing I know someone is telling me I talk too much. It just happens and sometimes I don't even realize what I say.

I love to cook. I am not one for eating out. Being that my family practically lives off of frozen pizza and taco bell, I dream of coming home and making a home-cooked meal for you and our future kids. I hope you like Italian and Mexican dishes because that is what I am best at. (I can cook other things though.)

I love to spoil. You will come home and at random times will find a gift I got you just for being you. Your birthday, Valentine's Day and Christmas, I will go overboard. Don't argue with me on this, either way, it will happen because I love you.

During the holidays, I want to do the family dinners. I love hosting people and over-decorating. It gives me joy. I love wrapping presents, listening to Christmas music, decorating the tree and sitting by the fireplace and drinking hot chocolate. My house was always too small for my family growing up to host the holidays, so I want to have a house big enough to host both of our families, I hope you don't mind.

I am a fun person. One day you will come home and find a nerf gun taped to our front door with a note saying "I'm inside, come find me". I love water balloon fights, pool parties, grilling and just relaxing. Sometimes I like to just take a step back and enjoy the view.

I know we will fight. Each relationship has its ups and downs whether we like to admit it or not. I don't want to go to bed angry, I don't want to be the couple that yells. When we have differences, I want to discuss and compromise. After all, it's me and you against what the problem is, not us against each other.

I can't wait to marry you someday. I am sure you are everything and more than what I could ever believe to be true.

Your Future Wife