Here's the deal.
Nine months ago, I was left brokenhearted. I had always been weak and vulnerable, and you took advantage of that. The summer took a toll on me. It was a summer that I imagined we'd spend together before I departed for college. But it wasn't that. It was the summer of tears and hopeful thinking that you'd come back. At the end of summer, I packed up my things and all of memories. I set them all to flames because I was leaving you and all of our heartbreak behind me.
What you did to me, to us, it honestly sucked more than anything I could have ever imagined. It's taken me months to realize this, but I don't need you, and I know that one day, you won't even be a thought in my mind. I've taken the time since you left to better myself, to evaluate where I went wrong in our relationship, so that I could be the best version of myself for relationships to come. Up to this point, I haven't been able to let myself catch feelings for anyone else. I was so scared to hurt someone by not being able to give them my whole heart. But now, I know that you'll forever hold a piece of me, and I will never get it back. But I'm not letting you hold that against me. You don't deserve to hold me hostage from love the rest of my life. I need to release myself from your hold and be happy again. That's starting now.
For the past few months, I've watched you on social media with a new girl. I knew I was over us when I wasn't affected by her posts of you. It didn't bother me anymore. After all is said and done, you hurt me, but you deserve happiness. And I've decided that so do I. I have been trying to start something new, spark a new flame with other guys. I'm not gonna lie, it's been really difficult. I found myself constantly comparing them to you, trying to fill a hole that you left. Failure after failure, my chances at new love were looking slim. I was so frustrated. What had you done to me? I was convinced that there would never be a love for me like ours. But I know that's not true.
Do I miss you? Eh, more like the you that you used to be. The new you makes it easy to not want to be with you, so thanks for that, I guess. I really hope that one day, we can be friends like before. That's really what I miss most, the friendship we had. I told you everything and came to you for any issue. When I didn't have you to turn to, I fell apart. But one thing that I've learned from you and your mistake is that family and friends are truly forever. My friends never left my side or abandoned me, but you did. And during the summer, the tears you caused, my mom spent days wiping away.
I guess the reason I'm writing this is to let you know that I'm done. Done thinking of you, thinking of your thoughts about me, and hoping for you to come back. I don't want those things, and I surely don't need them. At the moment, my heart is open to new adventures, new opportunities and a new relationship. Thank you for being the first one to show me what love was. Thank you for some amazing memories that I'll cherish forever. And lastly, thank you for giving me an opportunity to see my own strength. Because of you, I am stronger and more capable than I ever thought I was. I hope you know that I only wish you and your family the best. I am forever grateful for the lessons and disappointments you caused me because they've made me the woman I am today.
