Dear future husband, to be completely and utterly honest, I believed that by this time I would have already found you. My plans included meeting "my soul mate" around this time. My plans included being friends for a few years before dating for two years and then getting engaged, later to be married by age 27. Is it still possible? Yeah, no doubt. But it's not really a plan i'm trying to execute these days. Plus I still have 5 years until I reach 27, and a lot can happen in five years. These days I'm just trying to balance all of my commitments and be the best me I can possibly be.These days, the thing i'm most attached to is my planner. Honestly, I just want to make grades and have fun while doing it. I want to go a few days without my keurig and get 8 hours of sleep in a night. I want to be able to serve greatly on my campus, in my church, in my community. I want to volunteer in as many places as I can. I want to do really cool stuff not just to add to my resume, but because my heart is inclined to it. To be honest, i'm not too worried about finding you right now. Sometimes when I see everyone's engagement pictures I get carried away and i'm like when's my turn? But that moment goes away pretty quickly- trust me. Right now i'm trying to figure out why someone who says they love you and miss you can just walk away the next day and post pictures with a new "love" of his on social media, and then take it down because I gave it a like. Right now i'm trying to figure out how to not look stupid in front of my own crush. Right now i'm trying to do so many other things as an "independent young lady", which is not to say I don't want to find you. What i'm trying to say is that i'm not worried about finding you, and i'm in no rush to find you as well. According to my roommate, i'm Oprah in the making. I can cook and clean, and I love to serve. I'm sweet, I adore children, i'm really easy going. I love helping others. I can dress up on a night out, but feel just as beautiful in a giant t-shirt and basketball shorts at home on a Saturday night. I have just as much fun in a sporting event, as in my church life group. I'm a pretty well-rounded individual. There's always that "BUT" though. I need you to know and accept the fact i'm a horrible flirt- that's right, I will therefore seduce you with my awkwardness. I need you to also know and accept the fact that I'm not clingy. I'm just not- in fact, I hate checking in. I don't mind telling you where i'm going to and where i'm coming from, from time to time, but don't expect me to give you a time log of my day. I'm not into the whole PDA (public display of affection) thing. I don't have to hold your hand when we're walking together. I don't need goodbye kisses when we go different ways. I'm naturally a hugger, but I don't need to hug you for five whole minutes to show you affection. Don't get mad if I call you bro over babe. Don't take it personally if i call you by your first name. Don't be bothered by the fact that i like to celebrate with high fives. Don't be upset at the fact that I don't feel the need to text every single day. Some days I will leave my phone on do not disturb. Some days I hold off from texting back for a while, until I finish my daily tasks. Do i want to be with you? Yes.I promise you that I will enjoy of your company, but i don't feel the need to be glued to your hip. I want you to be able to hang out with your friends, and I want to be able to hang out with my friends, be our own individual selves, and be one at the same time, or at different times. I don't want to "get lost in another person" and not be able to be myself. We can hang out with each other on a Friday morning and with our own friends Saturday night, or all together if everyone is cool with that. We can have nights to ourselves from time to time. We can have deep and meaningful conversations, or pointless conversations, watching TV on the couch. We can have fun without being so serious all the time. Let's not over use the phrases "i love you" and "i miss you". Let's just take it slow when we need to. Let's wait to have children, wait to make serious commitments and purchases. Let's love each other when we're being stubborn. Put up with each others faults- please put up with my indecisiveness. Don't hate me when I laugh at you rather than with you. Put up with me when I feel the need to blast the radio up for ONE song. Take a deep breath when you know i'm about to talk about Taylor Swift. Let me ask you quirky questions. Let me call you handsome. Accept my rare smothering moments. Let's accept each other no matter what. Let's stray away from "movie relationships". Let's be friends before anthing else. Be each others partner in crime. Accept the fact that i talk WAY TOO MUCH! Dear future husband, I can't wait to do life with you, whenever the time comes!
