I know exactly how you feel. I know what you're thinking. For the 3rd time trying, he showed you the exact something as before and now you're drawing the line and you're done. As great as it feels to have his extra weight from you, you can't help but come across the melancholy feeling. Thoughts about being single forever and if you will be alone the rest of your life come to your mind. You ask yourself if all guys are truly the same, or if you will eventually meet your soulmate and live happy ever after. He is out there. I promise.
The first step to moving on is letting go. Letting go of what happened, the pain, and then, forgiving. In my opinion, this is the hardest part, but the most important. Come to the realization that it didn't work out for a reason and that it's better this way. One day, you will know why God took him out of your life and it will make sense. Trust in that. Trust in the saying everything happens for a reason and most importantly, realize you're better off.
Next, you have to love yourself. Love yourself by realizing what you deserve and not settling for less than that. Realize how great of a person you are and how much you deserve from a person. You ever feel like you give so much and receive nothing in return? Do you want to know how you put a stop to that? You stop giving to people who aren't giving you anything in return. It's exhausting to always give to someone who acts as if you aren't nearly as important. Relationships aren't always 50/50 but they sure aren't supposed to be 100/0.
QUIT stressing about a boy. If he made it seem like you were easy to let go, he didn't deserve you in the first place. You are worth so much more than you probably feel right now, and I am so sorry that it's gotten to this point. But one day, you will find a man who knows just how great you are. The feelings will come so natural you can't think twice about them. He will surprise you in so many ways and tell you things about yourself that you didn't even know. He will make you a better you, but tell you he likes you for who you are. You will be scared, but trust in the possibility of God finally sending you that person to show you exactly what you've been missing this whole time. Be patient. Be patient in the journey of finding this person. But he will come, I promise. I know this because not too long ago it happened to me.
