I am not a hateful person in anyway, but I can't stand Valentine's Day! Whether it's the cheesy card that lovers send to each other, or the endless amounts of couples I see when I'm out and about. It always reminds me of how single I am. I'm not complaining of how single I am, or that I want someone to love or anything, but why isn't there a day to celebrate being single. There are so many people that are single and they love to be single. Single-hood is a time in your life when you discover who you are, and what you want out of life. It's good for everyone to be single at some point in their life. For all of us who are single, Valentine's day is the one day a year we feel the most alone.
I have never had a boyfriend on Valentine's day. I have never had a good experience on Valentine's day. Is this why I hate Valentine's day? I remember when I was in 5th grade, and my class had a Valentine's day party. Every kid had their turn to go around the classroom and give everyone a valentine. The boy I had a crush on went around the classroom handing out valentines to everyone, but when he finally got to me, he had no more! Seriously, I don't even receive a cheesy valentines card from the boy I have a crush on! My fifth grade brain thought that he didn't like me, and therefore, I didn't like him.
Fast forward to my seventh grade year, when I went to a Valentine's dance with all my friends. Dancing to the Cupid Shuffle and the Electric Slide was fun with my friends, until the time came for the slow dance. All my friends were asked to dance, except for me. I went to bathroom and hid from the embarrassment.
Jump all the way to my senior year of high school, and this time things were going smoothly. I was dating a boy for about a month, and we were coming up on Valentine's day. It was the day before Valentine's day when we attended a Valentines dinner at my church with my parents, and after we went back to my house and watch a movie and just talked. The talk soon turned into an argument because we didn't agree on something stupid. Then we stared arguing about stuff that wasn't in the previous conversation. I wanted to stop and forget about it and just move one, but we kept fighting. I finally said, 'are you trying to break up with me or what?' and he said 'yes, I wanna break up'. He didn't even fight for me. He didn't care that we broke up the day before Valentine's day. I didn't care that we broke up, I knew we were both still new to the dating world, and relationships never lasted very long for me. I knew it was going to crumble soon. I wasn't upset, because it had happened before.
From this point on, I changed my taste in men. I knew I was still immature, and I was not an adult. I needed to know myself before I knew who I wanted. So I went on a break. I stopped dating and started finding who I was. I stepped out of my comfort zone and became who I am. For all of you are single, embrace it!
Take yourself on a date on Valentine's day. Treat yourself to a massage or spa day. Go do something you love to do. Most importantly, don't think of this a day of despair, because the day after Valentine's day is when all the chocolate goes on sale!
