I know that things are pretty rough right now. You have all of these memories and emotional turmoil that you don't know which way is up.
Break ups are never easy, no matter how many times you go through it. Sometimes you get over it very quickly, other times it takes weeks, months, or even years to recover.
Eventually, time ends everything, and in this case, it was a relationship that ended.
Your heart breaks into a million pieces. You've just lost your best friend. You're left alone to pick up the pieces in front of a door that slammed shut. You hope that the door will open but sometimes that door will remain shut. Holding onto that hope only causes more pain.
You knew everything about them. What they liked. What they hated. What they dreamed. Everything.
You sit staring at your phone, hoping it was all a dream. It wasn't real. You wait for your phone to chime that special notification for them. They're still a part of your life no matter what you want.
You still check their social media to make sure that they're doing okay. And I promise they are doing it too. Even when the relationship ended horribly, they still check in you just might not see it. Like when you ask a mutual friend how they're doing.
You can't fully forget them because if you did, you'd forget a piece of yourself and never be whole.
Eventually, you pick up the pieces and continue on in life. There may be that show, song, or activity that causes a twinge of pain but time will ease that pain soon enough.
You won't forget but instead, you'll use those memories to make yourself better. It'll get a little bit easier every day. You make yourself a stronger individual. But then you find out they've fully moved on.
You crumble into pieces again and start over. Or maybe you've built yourself strong enough that you can be happy for them. If you fell apart, you start taking each day at a time again.
Time heals all wounds. If the wound was deep enough, there will be scars but you can use those scars and memories to prevent yourself from making the same mistakes.
I wish you the best of luck and the brightest of futures,
Your Adrift Friend