After all of the fights and constant blaming, It has to come to the point that we need to say goodbye. We had good days but also bad, and it came to the point that those days would mostly be detrimental to our friendship. I don't want to believe it's over but these past few weeks have done nothing but remind me that we need to go our separate ways. You always told me that we would never be like the bad friendships that we saw with other people, and everything would work out in the end. I've lost trust in you, the things that you've said have caused quite the impact on my outlook of our friendship. It's beyond difficult for me to even think about your presence in my life in the near future due to all of the pain that you've caused me in the past and present. You made me think that I needed you and couldn't do certain things without you which was toxic within itself.
Honestly, I thank you for those days that I cried with the only emotion of feeling that I needed you to get through a difficult situation. Those breakdowns encouraged me to overcome my own battles with confrontation and learn how to fend for myself. I learned to never rely on anyone for my happiness as I was able to find it within myself. I don't regret our friendship and I never will, you were good to me at some points and we had some fun times. But, I need to learn from this experience to the best of my ability to be cautious within other situations that might bring out a weaker side of me.
It may be goodbye for now, but let's take a break and see where life takes us. I know that we will definitely be in each others lives again, in some way or some capacity. It's the way that we go about today, that will define the outcome of our tomorrow. I don't want this to be negative and horrible, this should be a learning experience for both of us about who we need in our lives in order for us to prosper and grow. I'll forever be thankful that you came into my life when you did and made me see a different side of myself that no one else was able to bring out. Yes it wasn't the greatest side of me, but it's present and it needed to be addressed at some point or another.
We will both take something from our friendship and I hope that you're able to grow from this as I definitely will. Let's just do our best to remember the great things that happened which may overtake the not so nice things that occurred within the last few months. Maybe in the future we can look back at this time and be thankful that it happened. Everything is constantly changing and i'm sure that the only way is up from here.
"If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living."
-Gail Sheehy
