Once upon a time, you were my person. Once upon you meant the world to me. I guess happily ever after's only exist in stories.
A year, you took a year to became this huge force in my life. You were my cheerleader, my motivation, my reason to laugh. We just somehow cliqued. We grew so close to each other; people started expecting us to show up to places as a pair. There was no me without you. You were the person I went when I got a bad test grade, when my lab TA was annoying me or when I just got a bomb haircut. No topic was off limits. You saw me ugly cry, you also witnessed my horrible impromptu dance sessions. You saw me in midterm stress week, as well as first-week-back bliss. I never thought I would lose you. You were my person.
But I guess nothing lasts forever.
It's one thing to lose a best friend due to distance, or just plain drifting apart, but it’s a whole new level of heartbreak when your best friend decides you aren’t good enough anymore. People always talk about how breakups in a romantic relationship are these big balls of sadness and despair, but I believe friend break-ups are much harder. In a relationship, you always know that there is a possibility it might not work, in a friendship you don’t think about an ending.
Now I am not writing this to tell you how much you hurt me that Thursday afternoon. Nor am I writing this to tell you I hate you. But rather, I am writing this to say thank you for the person you made me and the memories we shared. When I think about our friendship all I can remember are the good times (while yes there were bad times which inevitably became too much and caused us to break apart). I remember the inside jokes we used to share and how you could make me laugh in any situation. We could talk for hours or just sit in silence. I will always cherish those memories.
I am also writing this to tell you I am sorry for making you feel the way you did. I do not blame anyone but fate for what happened to us. I want to tell you that in time I will be ok. You made me a stronger person and for that I thank you. I wish you nothing but happiness and good luck to you in whatever life brings you.
Love,
Your (maybe not forever) friend.
