music.

as we live, music is our

escape

where we hide from what threatens us

a place where we feel safe

possibly the only place we feel safe.

how could someone be so cruel

deranged

void of emotion

to take that away?

music shouldn't be dangerous.

i can't begin to imagine

to fathom

to close my eyes and picture it

the horror

the chaos

yet

calm heroes who knew what to do

to save as many lives as possible

but

then again

they've had practice

this isn't the first time

and that's the saddest part

they've seen it happen in other places

at other times

so they knew

they knew the procedures

they had been trained to stop

what i can't begin to imagine.

after i read what happened

i habitually went to my guitar

and played the song i wrote in eighth grade

after sandy hook

the song is memorized

and as i sat there letting the words slide off my tongue

and the tears slide down my face

it hit me.

a tragedy like this shouldn't be familiar

why does this song have countless days to be played

why have i sung it so many times

violence shouldn't have a tradition

terrorism shouldn't be so familiar

this song

shouldn't

be

a

habit.