At first I thought that we could be something more. You made me believe you would be there for me. I showed up for you, but you failed to follow through on your end. It hurt that one day I just didn't hear anything from you anymore. It felt like you disappeared off the face of the earth. But you know what? I am stronger because of it. You probably don't even realize the effect your actions had on me, but I do.

Now I know what I really want in a future relationship. All of the times you weren't there for me, all of the times you said you would show up but didn't, made loyalty one of my top priorities. Someone who will keep their word is someone I want in my life and anyone who can't is a waste of my time.

I invested myself so much into every conversation and every event of yours but failed to see the red flags signaling that you wouldn't do the same for me. I started every text, thinking that "taking initiative" could make you want me more. I was wrong.

I probably should've seen it coming, but I didn't. I kept asking myself "What happened? What did I do? Where did I go wrong?". I was convinced I slipped up somewhere along the way. I replayed every conversation in my mind to pick apart a possible fault.

I kept blaming myself when I didn't do anything wrong. I was so hard on myself all because of someone simply not wanting me. I wasted so much time criticizing myself when I should've realized that, you may not want me, but someone else will. I guess that's what happens when you care about someone more than they care about you. You condemn yourself because you are harder on yourself than you are on them.

You left me hanging, always asking myself what I did wrong. It was not until months after that I realize that I am better off without you. I loved our conversations, hugs and times spent together. But when it came down to it, you couldn't be there for me when I needed you and you couldn't keep your word. I can't afford to convince myself to love someone who will never love me the same. I cared for you and gave it my all. In the end, you left me hanging. But this isn't the end of my story. You may not have loved me, but there will be someone who will. He will never leave me hanging. I just have to wait and see.